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To All The Boys I've Loved

To All The Boys I've Loved

It's kind of funny. I've never really had reaaaal relationship—boyfriend/girlfriend type. Unless you count my long distance sixth grade boyfriend. Does that even count?  My relationship with guys are usually categorized as 'a little more than friends'. I'm never in a, go on dates kind of relationships like some of my friends. I'm usually in hanging out and texting, friends, kind of relationships.
Understand this now, there hasn't been a string of boys in my life (is that the saying?). But I'm saying that there have been boys that came into my life that have left an impact on me.

To CampBoy,
It's hard not to smile when I think of our time at camp together. We were both really young. We had finally reached the age of first relationships.
We spent most our time talking about our lives during those long hikes.
I remember when we weren't together I couldn't get you off my mind. The other girls in my cabin spent a lot of time talking about which of the boys they liked best. Everyone said they had noticed how close we had gotten. I was so embarrassed that I hadn't been as discreet as I thought.
I remember what it was like to walk side by side with you through the woods at night. Our group weren't as close together like our day hikes. But we were in our usual spot at the bag of the line. You pointed out the brightest stars and smiled at me.
We didn't admit to liking eachother until we both went home. My friend that had never met you, got your number from a friend of hers.
A few days after we went home we were texting during school. It was so sweet when you asked me to be your Valentine. Then when you asked me to be your girlfriend I was so excited.
Only things didn't work out to well. We texted a bit everyday. But nearly three months later we didn't talk for a few weeks. That's when you broke things of with me. I acted like I was already planning on doing that (I wasn't). But I didn't expect it to hurt so much.
I was actually relieved that I didn't have to see you again. So far I haven't, but there's still a chance that you could pop up someday.
As I've got older, I've grown increasingly skeptical of long-distance relationships. We weren't old enough (or mature enough) to make things work. But I don't see myself entering into another one.
We didn't talk for a few years, but right before high school started. My friend convinced me to Facebook message you. I don't know how it got to the subject of our 'relationship'. But you said it wasn't a real one and I chose to agree.
So I mark that chapter of my life as 'A Time Of Discovery'. I was discovering what it's really like to build a relationship with a boy.
You were a boy I cared for. A crush that developed in an amazing setting.
I'm glad that we spent that time of our lives together.

Sincerely,
CampGirl

To PunkBoy,
Okay I don't think that's the right term for you. But who cares. I can't remember liking anyone in junior high. (Honestly that time of my life is a blur.) So you're the next person that deserves a letter.
We had P.E together and you were next to me (or behind me) in roll call. You were tall and cute. You immediately grabbed my attention.
We were probably told to stop flirting so many times. I wasn't really looking for a relationship, I was just looking for a guy to make me laugh my Freshman year. I didn't really have the time for a relationship anyways.
You were the one to teach me about MCR and Panic!. You criticized my music taste —jokingly. But Once I started to find new music you hadn't heard before we had alot to talk about.
Nothing really came out of that. Well not really. I feel like we went on a date or something. I blame my bad memory, but that was three years ago.
I hope you're doing well, maybe found a girl *winks excessively*

From,
My Music Taste Was Awesome and You Know It

To J,
You were the guy that I had a crush on the longest. This was Pre-CampBoy and Post-CampBoy. This crush spanned fifth (maybe fourth grade) until I moved after Freshman year. Which is a long time to have a crush on someone.
You were just my little brothers friend, despite the fact that you were a a year older than me. For a while you treated me like a little sister, sort of...
I was just one of the guys. I ran around with all of you and even played football (tackle!) too. When we played hide and seek tag once it became dark outside. You'd let me ride on your back pegs to get away. I even trusted you h to ride on the handlebars. You taught me how to ride a ripstick and it was fun playing darts during the summertime.
Once I got into high school I thought things would change. I had stopped running around with you and the boys a long time ago. But I saw you at school and didn't know what to say. I was a cheerleader and you were a football player. I cheered you on even though I wasn't cheering for JV. I talked with your family about how life's been. But I always knew...
I always knew we'd never be together. I've read so many books about love. I guess I had built up my expectations.
But I don't think it was entirely lost. Before I moved, I did get the chance to talk to you. Not just our random heys in the hallways. But a real conversation. I can't really remember (probably I was really nervous). But I may have mentioned how I had a crush on you 'a long time ago'.
So to you all I have to say is I hope I made your life better. I hope the time we spent together was important to you. I guess I was more like a sister but hey at least I got to have you in my life.