I'll Do Anything - Justin Bieber Fanfic

Part 19

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Five days . Justin was leaving in five days.

I tried not to think about it , but the date just keeps creeping up on me , haunting me .

I was praying that a miracle happened and I got my memory before then , so I could go with Justin .

But it didn't seem likely.

I was currently sitting next to my bedroom window , watching the rain splat against the cold glass, before sliding down.

I always sat here for whatever reason . To think , sleep , I don't know why .

I just did

I didn't really know what to feel .

I guess I was just sad that I wouldn't see Justin for a year , and sad that I wouldn't be able to experience this experience with him.

A lot could happen in a year , which scared me even more.

I jumped slightly when someone knocked on my bedroom door , making me turn around .

"Hey" Justin said , walking into the room .

I smiled at him , before turning back towards the window.

"Why are you all alone up here?" He asked , before sitting next to me .

I shrugged my shoulders

"You know the boys are downstairs , they want to see you" He said , and I sighed.

"Alright" I said , before getting up and walking away.

"Wait a minute" Justin said , grabbing my hand and pulling me towards him.

"Whats wrong?" I asked , looking up at him .

"I could ask you the same question "Justin said , making me look down .

"Whats wrong" He asked , grabbing my face in his hands.

"Nothing , im fine" I said , moving away from his touch . It'll only make me miss him more .

I quickly walked out of the room ,ignoring his confused face and going downstairs.

"Hi boys" I said , giving all of them a hug.

They all gave me a sympathetic smile . Wow deja vu .

I ignored their looks , before sitting next to Niall.

I wanted to be mad at them for not telling me but it wasn't their fault.

"We're going to the beach Tyn , you wanna come?" Louis asked as Justin walked down the stairs .

I furrowed my eyebrows .

"Do you guys see the weather outside? Are you mad?" I asked , making them laugh .

"Obviously not today" Harry said , rolling his eyes at me .

"We were thinking Saturday , when the weather clears up." He added , the boys nodding in agreement .

"Yeah , and we were gonna bring our girlfriends along , so you won't be all alone" Zayn said , and I laughed .

"How sweet of you" I said , making him stick his tongue out at me

"So you guys in?" Liam asked , and I nodded .

"Why not" I sighed , before resting my head on Niall's shoulder.

I got my phone from my pocket , deciding to go on twitter and reply to my DM's.

I furrowed my eyebrows when I got a message , before clicking on it .

"Are you mad at me?" - Justin

I looked over at him , but he wasn't looking at me , pretending to be interested in whatever was on the television .

I sighed . I was over being mad at him .

"No" I replied , before locking my phone and putting it back In my pocket.

I felt it vibrate but I didn't check it , knowing it was him.

I wasn't mad at him , I was just keeping my distance for a while .

I didn't want to grow used to having him around , since I wouldn't in a matter of days.

I could feel his eyes on me , but I didn't look at him , keeping my eyes focus on the ground .

"Tyn?" Harry said , making me look at him .

"Can I talk to you for a sec?" He asked , making me nod and stand up , walking into the kitchen with him.

"Yeah?" I asked , not looking at him .

"What's up with you and Justin?" He asked , catching me off guard .

"W-what do you mean?" I asked , my shaky voice giving me away .

He gave me an incredulous look , making me sigh

"I don't know Harry I just-" I started , but I honestly couldn't find the words.

"I don't want to get close to him. Well closer I should say"I finally said , looking down .

"Why not? I thought you loved him?" Harry asked, confusion in his voice .

"I do love him! That's the problem here. I love him to much I don't want to lose him" I said , watching the realization hit in Harry's face .

"So you're trying to push him away , so it wont hurt as much when he leaves" Harry says , saying exactly what I was thinking .

I didn't reply , I just played with my feet , not wanting to voice out that he was right .

"Tyn" Harry groaned , wrapping his arms around me .

I wrapped my arms around his skinny waist , hiding my face in his chest .

"You cant do that to yourself , or to Justin . Its not fair for either of you" He said into my hair , and I willed myself not to cry .

"Its hard Harry . I can feel myself slowly sinking deeper and deeper , and I know once he leaves its going to be hard to get back up without him" I murmured .

Justin has been there for me since I can remember , he was there since this whole accident happened , and I was completely head over heels in love with him .

His been with me every day and that's gonna be a huge contrast to maybe once every few months .

"I know , but you don't want to do this and you know it" He said , and he was right .

I sighed , before letting go of him .

"It's getting late , im pretty beat" I said , before walking away from him and walking upstairs .

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A/N - Okay the past few chapters have been depressing lol so next chapter everythings going to be better !