Chris' POV
After turning my phone off, I went to sleep and took a long ass nap. I had to be knocked out for at least 5 hours, when I woke up, it was like 6:30.
I woke up refreshed and all that. I decided to do something with myself instead of being cooped up in my room all day, dealing with all that relationship bullshit.
As I stepped into the kitchen to get something to eat, I saw empty bottles everywhere.
Shaking my head, I trashed them all and went into the refrigerator.
"Baby?" I heard Angel's voice call from the living room. What the hell she doing here? And how she get in?
"Dont 'baby' me Angel, I'm not in the mood right now. Just leave." I told her.
"What's going on with you? I'm trying to make you feel better. Something's obviously wrong."
Yeah, you. I thought.
"And I wanna talk." She spoke. "That girl." She started.
I raised my eyebrow, obviously confused because I been with a lot of girls.
"The one you were at the carnival with." She explained. "Who is she?"
"I don't believe that's any of your business Angel."
For all she know that could've been my cousin or some shit.
"But I think I deserve to know." She pressured.
"Let it the fuck go Angel, I said it's none of your business!" I raised my voice, unintentionally.
"Woah, woah. You're yelling at me? Calm down Chris. How about you take your meds with your psycho ass." She replied.
"I'm not a fucking psycho. I'm not crazy." I confirmed.
It was like i was trying to convince myself more than her.
Was I crazy? Nah I'm not crazy.
"Yeah I got your ass thinking now huh? You're crazy Christopher. And you're even more crazy for trying to replace someone like me."
"Bitch, anybody would be more than glad to replace someone like you. You're a grimy ass conniving ass hoe and I don't even know what I was thinking when I got with you. You think just because I kissed you we back together now? Fuck outta here. Take yo ass and yo flea infested ass mutt out of here." I ranted, pointing at her ugly teacup dog. Who the fuck told her to bring that thing in here?
"You're saying this now but when that little ass girl realizes what you're really like, you won't have anyone. And once again, you'll be running back to me."
"I don't care, bitch. Get out."
She picked up her bundle of fleas and left out, slamming my door. The impact made things rattle, and I was trying my hardest not to run out there and deck her ass in the face.
I picked up the nearest thing, which was a glass and threw it at the wall forcefully.
"I don't need no damn medicine." I mumbled to myself.
What I need medicine for? Medicine is for crazy people and I'm not crazy.
Overwhelmed, i picked up another glass and flung it at the same wall.
When I got in certain moods, I would become destructive and throw things. One reason why that dumb ass doctor told me to take the medicine that's prescribed for me.
But why would I need that medicine? I only get destructive when i'm mad. As long as nobody makes me mad, I won't need it. Why should i have to take medicine because someone else pressed my buttons?
That's their fault not mine.
I need to calm down, Angel done got me all riled up. Now I feel like fucking some shit up.
I went in my room and turned my phone on, going on the Instagram app. I scrolled through the explore page, liking a few pictures when all of a sudden I saw Jaileen's beautiful face pop up. Being the lurker I am, I clicked on her profile, raising a brow when I saw she had so many pictures posted, all flawless.
I clicked the follow button but didn't like any pictures. I couldn't do that just yet.
I want Jai but I know I'm not good enough for her. I know she deserves and could easily find better than me. But for some reason I don't want to see her with any other man. I want her all to myself.
Jai is seventeen, living out here in California all by her lonesome, with no parents or guardian from what I've seen so far. So how does she do it? California ain't cheap. I want to figure that out about her but it's only fair if I reveal my "illness" to her also.
I know I'm not good for her, like at all. But something about her makes me find her attractive. Even though i might corrupt her, I'll find a way to make her mind. Somehow.
not edited. excuse any mistakes plsss.
