worries and heartache

beginning, fears and concerns

I don't remember anything, all I can feel is warmth and anxiousness, I tried opening my eyes, no. Nothing happened; I tried again, this time it worked. All I saw around me was a cosmic colored blanket, I was lying down, I tried to sit up, but I soon realized I wasn't just lying on some bed, I was falling. Though not frightening, the place around me seemed to be some bottomless pit, or void. I decided not to freak out, and let the breeze go through my hair, surprisingly, even though my emotions felt in turmoil, I felt free of stress. I slowly closed my eyes. I woke up, not in the blanket, but in my bedroom. It was a dream, but a pretty good one at that. I sat up and felt through my jagged fringe tiredly. I realized the room had a faint light blue glow to it. I had an idea of why, I stood up, and walked to a nearby mirror, and stared at my reflection. Yep, as I thought, I slept without my hat on, which would uncover my wakfu wings, that's why the room gave off a faint glow. I yawned tiredly, and looked at the time, 8 o'clock; I woke up in the morning. I walked around looking for my hat, but it was no were to be found. I decided I could have it off a little longer, and started to get dressed. I opened the door, and went down stairs, there waiting for me was my dad, a big man with a brown mustache and a big chef's hat covering his head, but kindness could always be seen beaming in his eyes. "Yugo you're up! What a long sleep you had! I was worried sick!" dad exclaimed, with the same happy tone I could always recognize. I could feel my wings moving in a confused manner. "What do you mean? How long did I sleep?" I questioned. Dad sighed, "Three days." I felt my wings moving upwards with surprise, "three days? How could I have been asleep for three days? How is that even possible?" I said disbelief in my tone. Dad made a confused face at me, "really? You don't remember?" I lightly shook my head. "You had a fight with Nox, you lost, he tried to turn back time, this time with someone's help, he failed once again to turn time the amount he wanted, but it turned back long enough to restore your friends, you weren't affected by the time changing spell, and were still damaged from the battle, so the royal eniripsa took you in and nursed you back to health." Dad explained. It only struck a little of my memory, nothing else though, I decided I wanted my hat back, so I asked, but didn't get a good answer. "Uh dad, where's my hat?" Dad looked down at his knees, and sighed, "It was destroyed. You used so much power in your battle, Nox ended up destroying your hat, and then the actual battle had started." My wings went downwards and dragged my spirit with them. I looked at my feet anxiously, but then I remembered, "Can't you make a new one?" Dad looked once again at his knees; I knew this wasn't going to be good. "The nearest fabric shop is miles away, and making the hat will take about two days, you'll have to have it off for about a week, I'm sorry, I wish I could do something about it." I put my hands on my face stress fully, "no, no, no! What am I going to do? I can't just stay in all week!" few tears started to form in my eyes. dad saw my stress and wrapped his kind arms around me, my wings twitched a bit in response, I ignored their sensitivity to touch and they relaxed as soon as I hugged back. Dad stood up once more, and wiped away any remaining tears, and ruffled my hair joyfully, "I know your extremely sensitive about this topic, but maybe it's time to show your friends, don't worry about everyone else though." Dad said reassuringly. "But, that's the more to worry about I mean what if- "don't worry, I'm sure people won't mind, remember I said the eniripsa treated you? Well your hat wasn't there was it?" My wings went up suddenly, "What did she say?" Dad sat back down and smiled, "She said they were the most beautiful things she had seen in her life, and questioned why you would hide such an incredible thing." My eyes suddenly filled up with hope, "She really said that?" I questioned. "Don't believe me? Ask her yourself, she'll gladly tell you," my dad said in response. my eyes formed another few tears, "Thank you dad," Alibert (dad) winked at me, "no problem, it's my job as a dad. Wow, you look starving! Why don't we have some breakfast huh?" my stomach growled, I smirked, "does that answer your question?" Dad started laughing, "completely!" he said between laughs. After a few minutes of well-deserved breakfast, the sound of footsteps came near, a blue and white figure I recognized very well walked down the stairs, when he got to the bottom of the staircase he hesitated. It was my brother Adamai. I looked away from him shamefully, as my wings went down at the sight of him. I never thought of showing him what I've hidden under my hat, whenever I considered what he would say, I just thought he would tease me about it, or if not try to convince me to show my friends. "Adamai! Why don't you join us for breakfast?" Dad said with a smile on his face. Adamai's stomach growled, "It would be my pleasure!" The dragon responded gratefully. The blue and white body of scales walked over to a seat next me, and sat down. He stared at me for a few seconds, and then moved on to my wings. He realized the wings were drooping and my expression stressed and anxious. His blue lips turned into a smile, "don't worry bro, I think they're awesome," Adamai said, "They really suit every part of your appearance and personality." My gaze turned on my brother, my wings still drooping though, "You mean it?" I Questioned. Adamai nodded firmly, "one hundred percent!" After that, we continued to dig in, the room once again filled with positive emotions. When all the food had turned into crumbs, I stood up and said, "I'm going to go outside for a bit," Adamai looked at me with concern, "are you sure bro?" he questioned. I nodded, even though i wasn't completely sure. Adamai nodded back, "then I'm going with you!" I looked at him for a few seconds before making a warm smile. We said goodbye to dad before opening the door and going outside. My wings were now drooping for good, I was super worried and I knew it. We walked around for a while, I smiled for a little seeing the beautiful surrounding of the Saddida kingdom.