Diary Of A Self Cutter

Gone Too Soon

It's November 25 2013, 12 noon.......I just found out my grandmother just died.

Yesterday from a heart attack.. My older sister ran up the steps and woke me up.

I jumped up, thinking to myself "is this a dream", I ran down the steps.

I see my mom crying and screaming on the floor, and my grandfather and uncle

trying to get her up. I run up the steps, sit on my bed, just sat there with shock.

I start to shiver and become very anxious, anxiety came back and........

I cut

I relapsed and I don't care at the moment, I want the pain and emotion to go away

So I thought of the only way I could, by cutting...I really wanted it to work...but it didn't...it was still there