From Minds To A Page

2 A.M

2-3am thoughts are the worst, cause you know you're alone and they just surround you saying the things that you know aren't true but without anyone to help it starts to sink in and you start to really believe that you are worthless and that life would be better without you. it's really hard to think otherwise when your all alone trying to sleep with everything just telling and yelling at you

and I know that my day will not go well when these killer thoughts start hitting me during the day, like in class. at those points I'm not really sure if I'm gonna make it, usually I'd succumb with all the strength left in my body. when you try to deny everything it it takes so much work and effort that it really just leaves you with no energy except to do the thing that your brain thinks you deserve the most. then at those times it's like you don't have the energy to get up to get what you need

I'm just so broken that I feel like there's no hope to being fixed