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baby, baby, baby.

i always tell you i need a nickname for you but then i never try to think of one.

hah, what if i called you cupcake? all your friends would tease you if they found out, so don't worry, i won't. i could call you my teddy bear, but i hate teddy, so i won't. and teddy bears are supposed to be smaller than me and in no way are you smaller.

hm. i thought about my prince charming but thats too cleeshe (or however you spell it) since you call me princess. *unoriginal nickname with his name* would be too over used..

heh, i could call you winnie the pooh. that would be funny, but nah. what about..

dang, thinking of a nickname for a guy is hard. i just keep looking around my room and i can't see anything. i want your nickname to have meaning, to make you smile when i call you it. just like when you call me princess, i always smile, and it brightens up my day, or my mood. i want my nickname for you to have the same affect.

fishy? no, that's weird.

definitely not daddy, that's just kinky.

i don't think i want it to end with a y, that's just too predictable. besides, you can add a y to anything and suddenly it's a nickname.

my angel? no, that sounds like its for a girl...

baby boy could work, but youre older and taller so it wouldnt make since.

my charming cookie! no, that just sounds like i want to eat you... and it would make me want a cookie every time i said it..

my sunshine.. again, i like it, but you might not think it's manly enough, so i'll keep looking.

dang, it's 3 am and i'm just racking my brain of nicknames for you. will i even remember i did this? probably not.

my marshmellow? that just makes you sound fat, and youre skinny, so no.

you are my everything, but that doesn't sound like a nickname..

my king or my knight... i like those. "i love you so much, my handsome knight." it has a nice ring to it.

okay, i'm done. i just started thinking, and i couldn't help it. my mind got put on you, and questions roamed my mind. was i nice enough to you? i mean, i thought so. but then, i rethought. that's what I thought. i didn't know what you thought. so, i'm going to tell you right now. if i ever make you uncomfortable, tell me. if anything is wrong, tell me. i'm here to listen.

also, i remember when we first met. if i had the texts, i would be able to look through them and realize how nervous i was. i was careful about everything i said. and to be honest, i still kinda am. i don't wanna offend you, or, hurt your feelings. i love you and i don't wanna loose you. i've been left before, sometimes without an explanation. and it really hurts.

god, i'm cheesy right now. but i dont care.

i just want you to be my last first kiss. you don't have to say this, but i just..

will you be my last first kiss? and, i can be yours? maybe? i know we are young and that's silly to say, i just ... i'm writing everything that comes to my mind. the more i write, the tired-er i get, and i need sleep..

goodnight, my charming, handsome, perfect knight. i love you more than words can say.