Razors, blades... what ever you wanna call them..
Whether you get them out of a razor, pencil sharpener, or if you just actually use a razor... or if you use plastic or glass, metal....a pencil, what ever you use.
Remember it gets better.
From someone that (or use to) cut(s) it gets better.
Threw heart breaks and loses and everything. It gets better
You have a future.
Your worth being here.
Well anyways,
Cutting is an addiction,
I cut (or use to)
Bc I felt lonely
Like I didn't matter,
Like there was no point in living,
Bc everyone is going to leave you,
Or forget your even alive.
I would cut to see if I could
Feel pain again.
See if it actually hurts... to still
Be alive.
What would you say if someone as your scars?
I told them that o got scratched by a cat.
That I didn't know what happened.
That I was really clumsy at school, and got scratched.
When did you start getting depressed?
I started getting depressed around the age 5... I was in the first grade *yes I know I was really young*
I got bullied for about 5 years bc
I wasn't pretty
Im fat
My voice wasn't girly.
I wasn't popular which made me a big Target.
I didnt have any friends..
I didn't have a lot of money.
They would call me lesbian and freak.
The boys would call me hippopotamus.... or they would say ,"You eat so much no wonder your basically like a hippo."
Etc...
Did you ever tell an adult about your cutting?
Yes 7th grade my assistant teacher. She noticed that there was drama going on and she asked me if everything was OK and I basically came out to her and telling her everything and then she figured about my depression and my suicidal thoughts and everything so I told her everything that happened and she gave me a journal which I still have today. pretty much read everything in it and she would read it you tell me what she thought about it she help me and a lot of my friends to get through the dark times. If 7th grade year.
Do your parents know?
No bc I'm pretty sure they would send me to a rehab.
Xoxo~Lucas 🌸
