... The world. The world became a Cold and darker place after that. War broke out more than it ever had and many innocent men and women lost there lives because of it.
I left Midgard about a year after Bucky died. I went home to Asgard. I was ready for father to chose who would take his place. I knew Thor would win, but all the same. It was only when I devised this hellish plan to take Midgard as my new kingdom did I find a ghost. He was a different. A man out of time. There he stood, Bucky's friend Steve, dressed like an American flag like he had so man years before. Even after seeing my power he was still brace. I could have killed him then and their but I didn't. I loved Bucky to much. I loved him to much so I surrendered. I came up with a new plan and people died. Many people in New York died at at the end of it so did I. I wanted to die. I wanted to be with Bucky in Valhalla. I wanted to be happy again and go back to that night before Bucky left where he and I stayed up late holding each other. Where we stayed close. Where we loved each other. I wanted Bucky back, and even with all these gifts and all these powers I still couldn't bring him back. I couldn't save him. I couldn't be with the man I loved and it killed me.
"Loki," I heard my brother say as we stood at the top of stark tower. The avengers lowly surrounded me. Thor locked me up and took me back to Asgard with the help of a young child.
I turned to the Guardian to see her smile, "I was in the middle of a wrestling match with some guy with a metal arm when I got called to take your ass in.He bet me some money and a job that i couldn't win. I won then got called to help the prince." I asked her, "Why did you, do you serve the house of odion?" I watched her turn away from, "I wasn't born in Asgard like Thor was. While were telling stories i might just tell you the truth," She took a deep breath, " I was born here on earth. My parents are Asgardian, but i was born here. I was raised here and left here. I ended up meeting other children from Asgard. I became a leader of the ones left behind. When the meteor came to wipe out the dinosaurs i was the only survivor. I was rescued by odion and became the guardian. That was 65 million years ago." My eyes got wide, "you're no normal asgardian." she shook her head no, "I never really understood why i was so special till i held my mothers lifeless body in my arms. She died protecting the princess. Prince Odin sons wife Jane Foster. I was brought home when she was and was tasked to protect her. When the queen feared for her love i was ordered to find and protect him," she had tears in her eyes, "I arrived back in the room where my mother was to find her dead. My brother went after malakieth and I held her in my arms crying. The king wanted me to take Jane Foster to Midgard. She was a danger to all nine realms. I thought that a trip to Valhalla would be better." I spoke up, "You wanted to kill her?" I watched her shake her head no, "No, I'm allowed to walk to the Valhalla and to the realm Hel. I am not allowed to cross into other realms because i would become mortal and so would the other guardian. Loki," she turned to me, "Do you know what it's like to lose a part of yourself? To watch the other half of you die?"
I closed my eyes and when i opened them i could feel tears rolling down my face, "I do know what it's like to watch the only love you've ever known die in front of you and even with all this power have there be nothing you could do about it." She walked from the window to one of the cupboards and grabbed a blanket. I scooted over for her to come and lay beside me. "I've been alive for to long and have lived many life times. They say you're lucky to find your forever once, I've found it in each life I've gotten to live. I even watched soldiers like Captain America lose the one they loved and held dear. I have family here in midgard spanning back to as early as the roman empire where i was forced to marry a king. The world is a cold place and life isn't fair. If i had the power i would bring back the man who showed me that my heart had been stolen by someone i loved deeply. He was the one who changed my life and made me realize how much i needed to have friends in my life." I said, "What was his name?" She curled up next to me, "He called himself winter, he never told me his name." My eyes got wide again as thoughts on how the world brought the two of them together and what they did? I took a deep breath, " How did you meet him?" I felt her smile against my side, "I dropped into Germany during the cold war. I owed a favor to a friend and was sent to kill him. Instead I saved him. Winter was being hunted by different parties and he needed help. I took him to a safe house and dropped him to the ground so he couldn't get any punches in. When he started talking i new he wasn't a villain, but a victim. I tried to read his mind, but what i saw. What I tried to find was a mess. I was surprised he was still alive," she took a deep breath, "the man before me held onto one single image. It was of a man I think. I didn't really see his face. He had long black hair. He was thin and beautiful. I wanted to help him but Winter was scared. He was scared that he'd lose the little bit of the faceless memory. We stayed friends till he died. He told me he ended up finding that faceless man. He told me stories about how he started to remember another friend. He..." she readjusted herself then I said, "in the nightstand there's a photo album. Can you get it?" She got up and got it. She came back and sat next to me. I told her to open up the book to the last page. When she did I saw her eyes get wide and jaw drop, "it was you," I nodded as I watched her run her hand over the photo (this chapter photo) before saying, "back then it wasn't accepted so Bucky and I took separate photos. He had mine and I his. She crawled back in with the book then said, " tell me about him." I found myself kissing her forehead then continued, "you want to know a secret?" She nodded then I said, "the real reason I invaded earth wasn't to rule.it was to find Bucky. Heimdal, he told me he had caught a glimpse of a ghost. He informed me and I came here. I tried to shake a few trees but when nothing happened I new deadly force would be better, and when they brought you in and you said to Thor about fighting a metal armed man I knew I was closer to finding him. You telling me the story now only confirmed it to be true, and that you knew him once upon a time. I invaded to scare the right people. It was thanks to Barton's security clearance that I managed to get a trace. When I came back a few years later I found him. I found him in what used to be solovia." She got up, "are you ok Guardian?" I watched her shake her head, "the king would not let me interfere. Said it was best to stay out of there feud. Only was it after the destruction of sokovia that he saw the error in his judgement," she turned to me for a moment, "continue Loki." I nodded then said, "I was in sokovia watching from a distance. He stopped to buy plums. I was going to walk up and introduce myself till everything happened. I was arms length away and was going to rescue him when he disappeared into the crowd. I didn't find him until heard later. More like he found me. I was at a coffee shop about a hundred years after the day we met. He came up to me and smiled. We talked for days it seemed. He got mad for a moment when I told him I started an invasion just to find the him."
"What happened?" Asked the guardian now taking her seat beside the bed. I smiled thinking about that night. I could see Guardian smiling. Her eyes smiled when she smiled and it made me happy. I loved to see her smile. It was the only happy thing about being in this hospital, "can you do me a favor, when I'm dead promise me you will live your life. Go be free and fall in love again. Do be scared to let your heart break. I want you to love again. Would you do that for me?" She took my hand and laid her head down, "I fell in love once and he broke my heart in more ways than one." I placed my hand on his head, "tell me about it?" She looked up to me, "tony stark. In my many years I became an avenger. I grew to care for him and then nothing. His flirting back changed and he stopped talking to me all together. After the war nothing was ever the same. Odin called me to Asgard. I think he was counting and hoping that I'd sign the accords. I guess that after everything..." I watched her close your eyes, "then go back and change his mind." She said, "I can't. I don't have the power."
I leaned over and placed my hand on her face, "our mother taught you everything you know. Just remember your teachings and you can do anything," I watched her smile then stand up. She was about to say something when the night nurse walked in, "Jamie, shifts over. I'll take over till we switch off tomorrow." Jamie smiled, "remember me tomorrow. I'll have an adventure to tell you." I smiled, "till next time." I nodded then left Loki to the night nurse. I ran home. Got into a nice comfortable outfit then focused on the man I loved and hoped my teachings and training would take me back to him.
