I'm not worth saving.
I am dead, I am gone.
So just give up
and please move on.
Besides, no one cares.
No one asks how I feel.
I'm simply there
To rant your long spiel.
I want to help!
Do not get me wrong
But what if I'm the one
Who needed help all along?
I'm breaking inside
And no one knows why.
I'm stuck in a cycle
Of endless white lies.
No one can hear
My screaming at night.
My thoughts are never silent,
Not even in light.
Please get me out
Of my twisted black mind.
But I've thrown out the key
So that no one can find
The depth of my pain
In a cold empty silence.
Where no one can see
The true hidden violence.
It isn't the cuts
That are killing me.
It's the endless mind games
That nobody can see.
So next time you judge
By the smile on my face,
Remember the mask
That I put in its place.
It's fit perfectly
To the scars on my skin
So that nobody knows
Through thick or through thin
If I am depressed
'Cause the mask hides what's true.
The mask will be stuck
Until I am made new.
