finding harry (discontinued)

4.

Louis and Harry got there just in time to watch in horror as Liam pushed Josh out the way swiftly getting the wind knocked straight from his lungs in the process, he fell to the floor and people shouted and screamed. Harry also screamed when he saw Liam, someone who he loved, fall to the floor unconscious. This was the first time Harry had ever made a sound ever since he was 4. Everyone but Louis and Harry were too busy to notice Harry make a noise, crowding round the scene, Niall at that point had also blacked out and everyone was trying to get them to the hospital wing. Louis however was looking at Harry with wide eyes as Harry slapped his hand to his mouth, his eyes wide with fear and worry but also embarrassment at the girly scream that left his mouth.

"Harry did you just... scream?" Louis asked a smile settling on his features even after what had just happened. Harry frowned before tearing up slightly and nodding

"Well that's great Hazza, but we have to g- wait why are you crying" Louis then said to Harry at which point was when Harry felt tears fell down his face. Harry was going to be an emotional wreck in a moment. His best friend and the boy he had strong feelings for were going to the hospital wing and he'd broken being mute completely. Harry shook his head letting out a sob before running off to his room to which Louis followed. Harry was now worried about two things. Liam and the bullies. The memories were coming back to him, and all the memories were bad, they could never be good. Most people would be happy Harry talked, but Harry just felt as if the whole world was crumbling down on him. The picture in his head from the day those boys beat him up the when he was 4 started to focus and Harry pulled at his hair shaking his head.

"GO AWAY" his screamed at himself in his mind.

"Hewwo im Hawold" 4 year old Harry said to the big boys in front of him. They looked like nice people to the little tired eyes. He wanted somebody to be his friend

"Your voice is weird... leave us alone we don't like you" One of the boys said to Harry pushing him onto the floor, another left a kick on Harrys stomach and all three started to leave hits everywhere. Harry screamed in agony as the hits came left, right and centre. When they walked off.... Harry knew not to talk to them anymore. He curled up and cried. 'Your Voice Is Weird' Harry remembered the boy say and that's when he first stopped. Harry never talked to the boys again.... infact he didnt talk at all.

The voices of constant taunting and teasing came back, all the punches from the bullies constantly trying to make Harry talk they came back. He couldn't think straight and his head was spinning, he wanted to cry. And that is when Harry just broke. In the middle of the hallway. Harry finally broke down, he just felt everything was going wrong, and people were gonna ask him to talk, and Liam was in the hospital wing hurt and all he could do is worry about him. He can't do anything to help. This was the first time Harry felt worthless. He was brought into a small but comforting embrace, looking up he saw his best friend, almost like his brother the one he would hide his tears from. He couldn't hide his tears anymore, it was too late. Louis wiped them away and Harry fell into his the smalls boys warm touch and crying his heart out and hiding his face on Louis' shoulder where the tears started to stain his shirt. To Louis it was painful to see Harry this broken, it was horrible. Harry was just crying his eyes were glossed over with a look of hurt and pain, This was a look he had never seen before, and this was the look Liam could see everyday, the look Liam had mentioned on his first day, he could finally see it, but he didn't want to. Liam had to see that look all the time, and it was horrible, Louis instantly felt sorry for him as well as worried for his health, Niall.. Sorry James had given him a strong punch to the stomach, when he and Harry entered the canteen we heard the low grunt he gave off before he fell to the floor as if he had no air left in his lungs, he had blacked out not long before Niall did too. Louis' thoughts went to Niall and he sighed 'Niall's probably wondering around thinking and asking himself why he was in the Infirmary section again, yet again.' Louis thought to himself and shook his head. The even sadder about this whole situation was that this had happened before, more than once. All the boys but Harry had been in the infirmary, it seemed that James couldn't bring himself to hurt him. Louis had been in four times, Josh once, Zayn three times. Yeah everyone knew Niall would never hurt a fly but James was ruthless. So everyone would keep distance when James was around. Louis had been in with a split lip and a concussion because of "James" and later when he got out Niall was fully concerned and almost stuck with him for the whole week, except for when Louis slept or when he was hungry, little did Niall actually know that he was the one who did it.Louis looked down at Harry who had cried him self to sleep, He then sighed and gently picked him up bridal style trying not to wake him from his slumber. Louis' arms stung by the time he got him back to his room, it wasn't that Harry was heavy, it was because his muscles had become weaker due to not eating. He stopped because he used to get called pudgy, fat, overweight, obese and more in secondary school when he first started there so he stopped eating properly at 12, and his mother Jay noticed when he was 13 that he had stopped and tried everything to get him to eat again, but he never did, so she sent him to the asylum to get better, but he hasn't so far so he has had to stay. He sighed and lay Harry down before sitting himself down trying to get his breath back. He then yawned, and his eyes started drooping, all his thoughts quickly drifted to Liam before he felt himself slip into a deep sleep, his head laying against Harry's stomach.

Zayn and Josh were still in the canteen, Josh in shock and Zayn comforting him. When Niall was about to hit Josh, Yeah Zayn was ready to take the punch for his boyfriend, but Liam got there first. Him and Josh had been dating for almost 2 months now and were very happy together. The only thing they weren't happy about is the fact that they were never affectionate in public. No one actually knew about the relationship, even the boys didn't know! They kept it on the down low so no one knew Zayn or Josh were gay. But they felt held back and often there were moments when they wanted each others touch but had to strain themselves and hide the love behind their eyes. Stereotypically by the way they acted around everyone, most people expected Josh and Zayn to be straight as they sat they acted the most straight of the group, but in actual fact it was the complete opposite. The time they would often look forward to was after curfew when everyone was in bed. You see they were roommates so they would cuddle up together and whisper sweet nothings to each other in secret. They would give each other sweet pecks and make each other laugh and blush. They would fall asleep next to each other and wake up next to each other both with smiles on there faces. And the fact was they were literally the most cutest couple you could ever meet. In Zayn's golden brown eyes, Josh was beautiful. He didn't care if he repeated what he said, Zayn thought that it just makes him the more cuter. And he was the perfect match for Josh, he would help Zayn when his anxiety kicked off, make him feel happy and loved when he felt depressed which was hardly ever anymore because Josh made him happy and he would lead him out of crowded places. All in all they were made for each other to help with issues and love each others flaws .

"Are you okay, did he hurt you" Zayn whispered into his boyfriends ear checking over his body for a scratch or bruise.

"I'm fine" Josh replied and Zayn gave him a look

"Josh?" he asked seriously and Josh just smiled at how protective his boyfriend was.

"Zayn, im safe and happy don't worry" Josh answered truthfully stuttering out a repeated sentence. Zayn smiled and wrapped his arms around Josh's waist not caring if anyone saw at that point. He just cared for Josh's safety.

"Zayn?" Josh then said without repeating looking at Zayn a bit shocked as he held Josh tight against him.

"Yeah?" Zayn mumbled against his neck as I left a small kiss there. Josh seemed to pretty much relax after that

"N-Nevermind" he stuttered before wrapping his arms around Zayns neck.

"Hey look at the fags over there" Someone shouted out and people started whispering and pointing at them. But you know what? Neither of them actually cared. Zayn just pulled back and gave Josh a small peck on the lips lingering for a few seconds. They then smiled at eachother and Zayn grabbed Josh's hand and lacing his fingers with his own before walking out of the canteen. They were out, and they had never felt so happy in their entire life.

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By the way Italics are songs and flashbacks if you haven't kinda guess by chapter 4.