finding harry (discontinued)

draft of 7.

He had loved him ever since he first laid eyes on him, when his blue eyes met the icy blue eyes of Niall Horan. When they first touched all he felt was fireworks, sparks shooting around him, heart beats that sped so fast he almost fainted. He loved the way his name just rolled off the tip of his tongue. And he couldnt help but blush whenever he was near him. He had fallen, and hard at that. In his eyes Niall was the perfect creation. A beautiful human being with no flaws. But Niall Horan had his eyes on someone else. Niall's heart was doing the exact same thing as his own but it wasnt for him. It was for Liam Payne. He broke inside everytime Niall was laughing at Liams jokes or if he was staring longingly with affection at the brown eyed boy. It killed him. It was painfully obvious that Niall felt for Liam. But the big big thing that made Louis feel he should really just give up was the fact that Niall screamed for Liam. He screamed and cried, reaching out for Liam whilst he was in the coma. The words he spoke to Liam, it was like a speech he had spent 2 years working on. He looked up through his tired sky blue eyes and sighed. Niall was pacing up and down the cold white corridors directly in front of where he was sitting. They hadn't moved from the hospital point incase Harry thought to bring Liam back. It was only the two of them...  alone... no one else. He couldn't help but stare at Niall as if he was the god of this world. He would look over his features and try to find an imperfection on Niall's face but to him there were none. He thought that he was a truly beautiful specimen.  But all Louis would do at night after he was sure Liam had fallen asleep was cry. Cry because apparently to Niall he wasnt good enough. Niall didnt love him the ways he loved him. He had even had thoughts about killing himself because the want was so strong for him. If Niall didn't want him, he didn't want to live. All Niall thought about was Liam. He was pacing over Liam, screaming over Liam, crying over him. And that's all he wanted Niall to do for him. It was sad for Niall because you could see it in Liam's eyes he loved Harry and Harry defiantly loved him back. Niall was chasing a guy he wouldn't succeed in getting. But he never seemed to give up either. Louis always told himself that he was no good for Niall, he was a waste of his time and space for the perfect ocean blue eyes he had compared to his 'boring sky blue ones' and his blonde compared to the brown hair Louis beheld. Louis didn't even care if he would have to put up with James for the rest of his life. All he wished was that he was the one to calm him down to make him stay happy for the rest of his life. But his name wasn't Liam Payne, and it never would be. But he loved him unconditionally. And he would never stop

---

"My Name is Josh Devine" Zayn said urging Josh to say it back to him

"My Name is Josh Devine" Josh then said and for once he didn't repeat making Zayn smiled brightly and hug him close. Yes Zayn had said it before that he liked it when he repeated things but he wanted them to get out of the place they felt trapped in. Ever since Zayn had started going out with Josh, his depression had seized to exist and he made him happy and safe taking care of the anxiety and claustrophobia for good. Josh however still repeated nearly everything and he's got quite annoyed with himself every time he did too, just because he reappeared things doesn't mean it was such a bad thing that he needed to be sent to a mental house. Josh was also sad because he had to watch Zayn act depressed so he could stay him when in actual fact he was fine. Both of them agreed on not telling the others because They didn't want to make a fuss when they were gone. Just then the bell went off 3 times that signified we had therapy. The bell goes off once for group 1, twice for group 2, three times for group 3 and well you get the picture. They also have buzzers. Buzz once was for room inspection, twice was for tablets, three times for meal times and four times was for curfew or lights out.

"Okay babe its therapy now okay, try not to repeat things even though I love it so much" Zayn said leaning down and nuzzling his nose with his lovers before looking down at his smiling face, he smiled at seeing him so happy before capturing his own lips with his. Josh wrapped his hands around Zayn's neck whilst he did the same but around his waist, it was slow and compassionate like it should be and they were both loving every second of it until the bell startled them again and they pulled back. They laughed slightly at each others flustered faces before grabbed each other's hand, intertwining their fingers and walking to the hallway where Liam and Harry were outside waiting for them. Harry had stopped Liam because of experience of walking in on the two boys doing... Things they shouldn't have been doing.