Midnight Memories [ Kendall and Harry ]

Part Five

Harry's point of view

 I haven't been able to sleep all night because I know I hurt Kendall. I know that she cried last night. I wish I could tell Kendall the truth, I wish I could tell her that Cara is blackmailing me. I wish that she knew that if I didn't pretend to be Cara's boyfriend that she'd hurt her. I wish she knew but Cara made it clear that if Kendall knew this was all a lie that she wouldn't hesitate to hurt her. I'm doing the right thing, I am protecting Kendall. I just hope she understands. I know have to apologize though. I get out of my bed and walk into her room and I'm shocked by what I am seeing. Is Liam really in her bed? Did she sleep with him last night? I walk away, angry, frustrated, hurt. I can hear her calling out my name.

"What Ken, WHAT!" I scream in her face.
"It's not what you think  ..." I can see tears forming in her eyes
"Then what, tell me what I just saw. Did you really sleep with him last night!" I notice all the boys walk out of their rooms, tired and confused.
Louis is the first to walk up to me, "Hey, guys, what's wrong?" 
I look back at Kendall and she's no longer looks sad, she just looks angry almost as if I had said something wrong, I recognize the look, and she’s disappointed. 
"Fine! Think what you what! I don't know why you're getting so mad anyways, why do you care? Go care about Cara!"
I didn't know what to say back, she thinks I don't care about her but the truth is I only care about her. I look at Louis and then look back at Kendall but she disappeared into her room. 
Louis and boys looked at me confused.
"Cara? Really mate? Why?" I can hear Zayn questioning me not leaving me a breath to answer.
The boys look at me disappointed, Louis looking the most disappointed. I knew them two never saw eye to eye and I had promised him after Cara and I ended things that I would never even speak to her again. I was stunned. I had no idea what to say, what to do. I was losing control of myself. I turn to see the floor lamp and without hesitation I punch it and it goes flying into the wall. I couldn’t even bare to look at the boys faces so I walked back into my room and slammed the door shut. How could I have been so stupid? How could I yell at Kendall like that? We’ve had fights before but it’s never been this serious.

A few moments later I hear three knocks at my door. I knew it had to be Louis.
“Come in Louis” I was surprised that it was actually Niall and Zayn.
“Nah mate, just us” Niall called out.
“I’m s-“before I could finish Zayn cut me off.
“I know you’re sorry but we’re not the ones you should be apologizing to."
I knew that they weren’t but how could I face Kendall again? She must hate me “I can’t see her again. I don’t know how to fix this mess this time guys.”
“We’ll help you” they both said in synchronization.

*knock knock*
This time it was Louis.
“Hey Haz” he smiled. I smiled back.
Louis came and joined the three of us on my bed that seemed too small to fit us all on. I knew he had something to say, a lecture, advice, something.
“Go on, spill it” I told him.
He took one deep breath in, “You love her, I know you do. I know you that you know, I know that you know that she knows that you know. I know that she-“
I cut him off, “Lou, you lost me.”
He continued, “I know you love her, we all know you love her and I know that she loves you too. So why? Why are you back with Cara? Because we all here know you don’t love Cara.”
I knew I couldn’t lie to them, not with this fiasco that happened. I swore them to secrecy that what I was about to tell them, they couldn’t tell her.
“Cara is blackmailing me. She said her career has been quiet lately and she needs media to speculate about her so that she can get in headlines again. She wants me to pretend to be her boyfriend but not her boyfriend” I noticed the boys were getting confused.
“She wants me to hang out with her so that the media think we have a thing going on but I can’t say anything about our relationship to keep the paps guessing and that means that she’ll be in the headlines longer.”
Just as I finished I felt a strong belt from pillow land against the back of me head.
“What the hell was that for Zayn?”
“What has that got anything to do with Kendall? Go and say sorry and admit your feelings for her you idiot and then this whole thing will be over.”
“I wish I could but Cara said that if Kendall knew this was all a lie that she would hurt Kendall and I can’t let her hurt her but instead I’ve hurt her”
Niall laughed. “So Cara has got you wrapped around her little finger.”
We spent the next 10 minutes in total silence. I knew what I had to do but that was different from what I could do.

I walk out of my bedroom and I see Liam walk out of Kendall’s room. Without thinking I walked up to him and pushed him against the wall holding his neck with my left hand.
“What do you think you’re doing with her!” I yelled at him.
Everyone came rushing out to see what was happening.
I could hear Kendall screaming out ‘Let go of him, let go of him’ but I couldn’t. My mind wouldn’t let me. I heard someone running towards me and without looking, I pushed them away. I looked at Liam’s face and he was speechless. I turned around and saw Kendall lying on the floor unconscious with blood on the floor.

What have I done?