The Secret of Hakuba Saguru's Diary [SaguKai]

Lost Book

Dear Irene-san,

Today was a total disaster. Aoko-san and Kuroba-kun went for a date at Beika Park. I... might have been there too for my Detective Hangout with Heiji-kun and Shinichi-kun.

Hurt consumed me. It was painful to look at them. Shinichi-kun and Heiji-kun knew about my crush. They told me to not fret over it. I was hopeless. I cannot fight back. I... just felt so much hurt. Especially when they had kissed before proceeding home, I think.

Heiji-kun was kind enough to lend me a shoulder to settle down. I may or may not had glomped him by accident. Oh the mortification. How embarrassing.

It was warm. The hug. Felt comfortable even though there were no... sparks. Not that I want to date Heiji-kun. Oh my gods, no! That would be... weird. Shinichi-kun had held my hand throughout the whole time too. It was nice of them.

Satou keiji and Takagi keiji thought we were dating. Me and Shinichi-kun. Double the 'no'! Even though Shinichi-kun shared the same sparks with me towards Holmes, I just can not imagine the both of us dating. Not. Even. Once.

Shinichi-kun had propped the subject that him and Heiji-kun are currently dating. I was... shocked. Happy but shock. Because... that meant this hangout was supposedly their date. They said they would not mind bringing me along because I am their friend but still...

I felt like a thirwheeler.

No matter where I go... I would always be a thirdwheeler. Either with Kuroba-kun and Aoko-san or Shinichi-kun with Heiji-kun.

Should I stop hanging out with them then? I... do not want to be an awkward thirdwheeler in between them. It is not polite to interfer their relationships.

It is sad that I do not have a mate, a lover, a counter-part or a significant other. It is sad that everyone around me seems to be dating and I felt like I am the only one without a partner.

If only they understood my feelings. Which I know they would not. Oh! Kuroba-kun and Aoko-san- more like only Aoko-san- asked me to go out to a funfair with them just about 17 minutes and 57 seconds ago. Though... Kuroba-kun did not look so happy about it.

I... rejected the idea then. Thinking I might interfer their... date. It hurts so much. I wish to move to England so that I could not see their face anymore but then father would ask me to find a possible wife that mother had planned out. Which I rather not, thank you very much.

Well, Baaya asked me to help her cooking dinner since I have nothing to do anyway. It was nice to let it out on a diary. Shinichi-kun was right. Getting myself a notebook to write on my entire feelings is nice. Could let my emotions run free.

Sunday. June 16, xxxx.
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Kaito huffed when he had finished translating the neatly written French language content of the diary. Some of the English one were... bland and boring to read. He had turned a few page over to find this neatly written French language paragraph.

What was that you asked?

Why... It's Hakuba Saguru's diary, of course!