I'd say I love you but I'd die when I say it to you (on hold)

I'd say I love you but I'd die when I say it to you

Prologue

  When I found out that if I say I love you to anyone I would die I never thought that would happen but I have always come back to life after years when the love of my life died. When I turn 15 or 16 years old I always find him in one way or another. I always remember what he looks like and I remember my past life but he never does and that makes me said about him not remembering but then again I don't blame him I blame myself that I can't break this stupid curse that I have on me.

My parents you ask? Well they live as long as they want until I find away to break this stupid curse I have and their like I think suppose to 113 years old but their only 25 years old cause I haven't found a way to talk to my mate or tell him that I love him but I haven't yet and I've asked my parents how they did it but they can't  tell me cause I have to figure it out for myself and when I do they will be happy for me and then they will be there when I get married to him then the curse is over till I have kids.

When I came up with writing I love you on paper and I will give it to him when he says it to me cause I remember what he looks like but I don't tell my parents my plan cause then it won't work but I always forget about the curse and blurt out 'Iloveyou' before I remember the curse and then I black out for like years and wake up as a baby and then grow and remember what happened to me and my mate.