Louis’ P.O.V
“So which of you are in a relationship?”
My heart drops at the question. Every time we are asked that question I never know what to say. Thankfully Harry is always there to save the day, but it still scares me. What if I have to do a solo interview in the future? I can’t give an answer as to why I don’t date until I’ve come to terms with the reason myself.
“We’re all happily single, but are on the hunt for the perfect love.” Harry answers perfectly, and I shoot him a grateful smile.
“Both you and Niall have had girlfriends before right boys?” They nod and I lower my head. “But Louis, since Misguided was formed over three years ago, you’ve never had a public relationship.” I sighed. “Would you care to reveal any hidden relationship you might have?”
“Um… I just h-haven’t had the proper time. I mean it’s not fair for me to get into a relationship right now without giving it my all. And when we’re touring like this, I have trouble balancing the two lives.” I stutter, hoping it’s an acceptable answer.
“Thank you Louis.” He turned to the camera, “And that’s all for our interview with the one and only, Misguided!”
I quickly got up and darted offstage, hoping that my panic went unseen by everyone. I ripped off the microphone and threw it to the nearest producer and raced to our dressing room.
As soon as I was in the clear I sunk to my knees and let out a long breath. The thoughts of my exes running through my mind. I try and ignore them, but when I hear the door open I have to leave.
Harry and Niall give me questioning looks, but ignore my actions as I leave the room and walk down the deserted hallway. Weird. It was thriving with life not even five minutes ago, and now it’s a ghost town. Let’s just hope it’s not haunted.
“Louis?” The voice sends chills down my spine and I spin to find the interviewer, whom I can’t remember the name of, and his creepy smile.
“Y-Yeah?”
“You ran off so suddenly.” He stepped closer, and I backed into the wall< “I hope I didn’t offend you.” His warm breath creeping down the collar of my shirt.
“You d-didn’t.”
“Goooood.” He purred and pushed himself into me, forcing his rough lips on mine and allowing his hands to travel across my body.
I squirmed and tried to break away, but he was much stronger than myself, and being paralyzed with fear doesn’t make for a speedy escape. The amount of times I’ve suffered through experiences like this is a number so high that I can’t count. His actions make me flashback to Derick, my boyfriend of three years before coming to Xfactor.
He made my life a living hell, but I was too blind to see it was his fault. He always blamed it on me and told me I owed him. I just wanted someone to call my own. But it was never a relationship of love. It was only a mixture of fear and lust.
“LOUIS WHERE ARE YOU!” I hear Harry yell for me. The interviewer groans and pushes off me.
“You’re a lucky fucker.” And he takes off, leaving me a sobbing wreck. I slide down the wall and bury my head in my knees.
“LOU!?” A pair of arms wrap around me. “NIALL I FOUND HIM!”
These were the only two that have ever shown me they cared besides my family. Mum and Dad are extremely protective, ever since they found out about James, and I’m too scared to tell them about Derick. They refused to let me date a year after James put me in the hospital, but when I met Derick, my Dad knew his Dad so he figured it was safe.
He was wrong.
I could feel myself drift out of consciousness, and I allowed the world to go black, hoping that maybe I wouldn’t awake.
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“Lou? Are you awake yet?” I groan and pull the covers over my head, just hoping for Harry to leave me alone. But he never does. “Please Lou? You have to talk to me. I don’t know what happened, but you have to give me something. I-I…”
“I can’t Haz.” My voice cracked.
“Why? Why can’t you. I know something bad happened in your past and I’ve been hoping that someday you might be willing to tell me. It has to be an ex. I’ve figured that much out. You refuse to date, and won’t talk to about love or your future, or even if you want a family. Damn it Lou I care about you so much. You’re like a brother and finding you like that breaks my heart. And it’s been happening more and more. You have to know that I would never push you to tell me what’s going on, but just know I’m here when you’re ready to talk.”
“Someday Harry. Someday I’ll tell you. But that day is not today. I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay Lou. Get some rest.” He kisses the top of my head, a sole comfort that everything will be okay.
But the thing is, it will never be okay.
How can I get over all the things that have been forced into my mind?
How can I get over all the bruises and scars they left me?
How can I get over the scars I gave myself?
How can I get over the loss of my virginity?
But most importantly; how can I learn to trust when it’s been lost too many times?
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