Bruised Inside and Out

Chapter Five

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Chapter Five

I got out of bed feeling as though I had barely slept, which in fact I mostly hadn’t. After getting home and filling Channy in on all the details of what had happened with Luke, I had laid there awake. Mostly feeling bad for the way I had treated Adam.

Channy was already up getting ready, she was sitting at her dresser putting make-up on.

“What ya doing Chan?” I said plonking myself on the end of her bed.

“Brent asked me to go to the movies with him today, Arrrgh I’m so excited, he’s so nice Lex.”

“Yeah he seems nice” I said feeling somewhat jealous, that she had someone so nice to take her places, but at the same time I was happy for her, I knew she deserved the best.

“Well I’ll get dressed and go home I suppose” I said sighing. Home was the last place on earth I wanted to go. “Well I could call Brent and get him to organise a double date with Adam if you like” she said turning to me looking hopeful. “Uh, no it’s fine. I have a lot of homework to do anyway.” I could not bare the thought of facing Adam right now.

I quickly changed out of my pyjamas and into a pair of jeans and black singlet.

I gave Channy a hug and made my way home.

Walking across the paddock I crossed my fingers that my dad’s car wouldn’t be there when I got home. Luck wasn’t on my side as I seen it parked in the drive.

I walked inside and went straight to my room, I looked around at the mess and thought I really should clean this room up, “Meh... can’t be bothered”

I sprawled out on my bed, with my diary and wrote about everything that had happened at the party, just as I finished I heard footsteps down the hall, so I quickly shoved my diary back under my mattress where I kept it, just as my door flung open. I jumped up from the bed to see my dad standing there with a beer in his hand. It was only 11 am and he was already drinking. He looked at me, laughed shaking his head. “Look at this fucking mess! You’re a pig! Do you like living like a pig do you?” I just stood there not saying anything. He walked off leaving the door open, I didn’t dare shut it, just started picking things up, I mean yeah there were a lot of things over the floor they were mainly just clothes and books. Wouldn’t take much to clean. Just as I was almost finished picking up the last of the clothes he barged back in the door. I was squatting on the floor with an armful of clothes as he started laughing, “Here you go pig, here’s some more rubbish for your sty” I looked up at him horrified as he started dumping the contents of the garbage bin over me and the floor. The smell was unbearable and I started dry reaching. “What’s wrong piggy?” I just sat there praying for him to leave. “Now you might think twice about cleaning your fucking room!” He snarled at me as he threw the bin, which hit me in the head, and walked off laughing.  I quickly grabbed the bin and put my face over it as I vomited. The stench of the rotting food was so strong my stomach couldn’t bare it. I tiptoed to the laundry and washed the bin out and grabbed a trash bag. I made my way back to my room and began cleaning up the rubbish. I would not let myself cry, just get this done. After cleaning everything the floor and using a wet cloth to mop up the carpet. I noticed that my maths homework was ruined there was some sort of juice all over it and I threw it in the bin with the rest of the trash. Great, how am I going to explain why I haven’t done my homework tomorrow? Sighing I took the trash outside to the garbage bin. And then put the trash can back in the kitchen.

Where the hell was my mum, I had not seen her since I’d been home. As I made my way up to the hall. I could hear voices coming from my parent’s room. I couldn’t resist, I put my ear up against the door and listened. “I can’t do this anymore Karl, I just can’t” my mother wept. “Well you know where the fucking door is” My father spat back at her. “I have no money and nowhere to go Karl, I was thinking that maybe you could leave, you could always go and live with your mother” said mum almost begging him. “I’m not fucking going anywhere you dumb bitch, why would I leave when you’re the one who has the problem” he yelled.

My mum laughed at this, which I thought was brave and out of character for her. “I’m the one with the problem?” she said raising her voice. “You are the one who does nothing but drink, then come home and treat us all like shit! You don’t deserve us, you deserve to be alone!” I was shocked, I had never heard my mum speak up for herself like this and I was proud but at the same time afraid for her. Bang! A loud smashing sound came from within the room which made me jump. “Oh great! How are we going to explain that to the real estate” I heard my mum cry. “Like I give a fuck what the real estate thinks, you’re lucky that wasn’t your head” he screamed at her his voice so full of venom. “I tell you what if you leave, you would want to watch your back Fiona because I promise that I would come after you, and you’re fucked up kids” He spat and I heard footsteps, so I quickly ran across to my room closing the door behind me. I stood with my back against the door praying he didn’t come back into my room. I can’t believe my mum finally had had enough after all the torture he had put us all through. My room still stunk with the rancid smell of rotten food. I went to the bottom draw in my desk and pulled out some scented candles and lit them with a match, hoping would mask some of the smell.

Beep...

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and seen that I had 2 new text messages.

Unknown Number: Hi Lexi, its Luke. Look I’m sorry about last nite, Jess just can’t seem 2 get it thru her head that its ova. I’m not a jerk and I meant wat I said last nite. U looked hot! I want 2 spend sum time 2gether soon. X

My mind was racing I didn’t know what to think, I mean that sounded like a cop out but I couldn’t resist hoping that he was telling the truth.

I scrolled down to the next text message…

Adam B: Hey Alexis, I know you can’t stand me and that I don’t have a chance with you. But I want us to be friends, especially seeing as our best friends are dating now, it will make life easier. So please can we try to be civil…

God I was a bitch, he thought I couldn’t stand him. I was just too afraid to let anyone get close, in case they found out how messed up I was. I would try hard to be his friend but keep him at a distance. I texted Adam back first I had no idea what to say to Luke.

I’m sorry for being a cow last night, of course we can be friends. X

I realised after I sent it that I probably shouldn’t have sent the x at the end, but it was habit, I hoped he wouldn’t get the wrong idea.

Ok now to text Luke back….

Hi Luke, look what you do with Jessica is ur business. Yeah we can hang out. Just let me know when. J

I was trying to sound cool about it all. Really my stomach was doing back flips….

My phone beeped again it was Adam

Great, I’ll talk to u soon. X

I didn’t know when I would actually have to face Adam, because he didn’t go to our school he went to the catholic one in town instead, but Luke on the other hand I would see tomorrow at school….