You're Worth It

Visiting Her

*Freddy's POV
   The clouds were beginning to clear up. I was glad for that. The sun peeked through the groggy sky and dimly lit the gravel road my feet treaded on. A rail road was ahead of me; a train was slowly passing by as I approached. I swayed back and forth as the large metal contraption raced across. When it had left I continued on my way and hum to myself softly. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you...pl-please dont take my sunshine...my sun...sun. It was too late. She was already taken away. And I made that happen. 

   There is an opening into the woods just ahead. I park my cart beside a tall, dark oak tree. I enter the woods. Ducking under branches and lifting my sore, old legs over stumps I finally reach a clearing in the woods. A large patch of dead grass and two large rocks. I approach them cautiously not to disturb them. I sit and take off my cap. I take the flower out and hold it in my calloused palm. My eyes begin to sting. I blink quickly; I dont want to upset them. "How are you, Beth?" I whisper to my wife. No reply. She must still be upset with me. It was my fault." I scoot closer to her but back away quickly as I feel a tension. I think she is going to yell at me. Even though I cant see her eyes I know she is glaring at me. I bow my head. A small whine came from afar, posabibly from a coyote. But it sounds too much like her. Her cries. I look up to Ally's stone to see a small robin pearched on it. A small smile pricked at my lips. A tear rolle down my cheek. I reach out toward the bird but it fluttered away swiftly. My smile vanished instantly. I  cried out, "Come back! Why must you leave me? Why must everything Ive felt love for leave me?" I heard a whimper. A small cry. I turn to Ally and hugged her stone. "Its okay, babygirl. Everythings okay...Daddy's okay..." I sobbed quietly as I clung to her. I could feel the cold stone dig into my stomach. Why was it cold? I promised her she would never be cold a again. Where is here blankie? I look beside the rock and say her torn heart blanket lying there. Picking it up I layed it gently on top of her. Kissing the stone I reassured her,"You are going to be okay."

   I had to leave. Today's visit didnt go to well. I remembered that the flower was still in my hand. I placed the delicate beauty ontop of Ally's blankie. I stood up and began to leave. Turning back to wave goodbye , I quickly turn back becuase the glare from her mother was searing into my heart. I loved them so much. I love them. But they dont love me anymore.