I dont hide anymore. Sometimes, i think about hiding again. Staying locked in my room. Disconnecting so you can never see me
I want to meditate and listen to my own heartbeat. I want to smoke cigarettes and cry. I want to feel whole again. A part of me has left you and i spit out all the blood in my mouth
i said goodbye and lit a fire. I set fire to my whole life and now youre watching it burn. It looks pretty. Youre proud of me. You say im burning bright. I will turn to ash and i dont know where my soul will go. I tried screaming their names, but i didnt know them. I recognised and you told me i was wrong. Maybe i was. I was gone.
I dont hide anymore. But im keeping secrets again. Theyre building up and so are my walls.
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"No, seriously." Amber sat up, crossed her legs and stretched her arms out in front of her. Jaiden kept giggling with a huge crooked grin on his face, sitting next to her with his legs crossed like hers. He started doubling over when she looked over at him.
"You're not a bird..." He said in between fits of laughter.
She sighed, exasperated, folding over the pillow and started laughing with him. "What if i want to be?"
"You're going go have to try harder and just letting yourself go." Amber gave it a thought and agreed with him.
"Why can't I be a Phoenix? It's sounds so much better than just outright giving up."
"Well duh."
