School affair // Jinkook

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"Sensei I love you. I will come back for you. Please wait for me."

That's what he said to me that day after the graduation ceremony. He was moving to Seoul to attend a famous university there. I still remember how his hands were trembling and how his voice cracked. To say that I was shocked was an understatement. My mind went blank and I couldn't even bring myself to say something. But he left after he declaring his love for me, he ran like he was trying to escape from my rejection, a heartbreak.
I kept thinking about it every single day.
Was he joking?
Did he really mean it?
We are both guys and our age difference is a concern too.
Will I harm his future by accepting him?
Will he really come back?
Am I just holding on to an empty promise?

All my questions were answered after 5 years, yesterday I saw him walking with his girlfriend. They were holding hands and laughing with each other. I ran away with tears falling down my cheeks. Why am I crying?
Didn't I know that this already?
That it was a joke?
Then why does my heart ache?

It scared me. Because of how normal they looked.