My Motives are Insane (Joshler smut)

Tonight.. I need

Tyler was tossing and turning in his bed unable to find the rest he desired, which wasn't uncommon for him- especially in hotel rooms like this, where he had no one to hold him and the voices seemed... not necessarily louder, but closer, which he knew didn't make since considering they were all in his head.

Josh could hear Tyler slightly whimpering into the other bed in the room they shared. Josh usually had trouble sleeping also, but for different reasons then Tyler. Josh was just more of an afternoon napper and night owl in general so in situations like this where he needed to be up early he would just jerk off, the release of the dopamine and strenuous act was enough to help him fall asleep. But since they had been on the road for a while he knew Tyler couldn't sleep alone tonight, so there would be no release for Josh tonight.

Josh listened closely to Tylers whimpers debating whether or not to act, but Tyler softly spoke out "Josh.. need you." His voice sounding frail. Josh quickly tended to him, feeling guilty that he even had to ask. Josh approached Tylers bed quickly but gently raised the blanket and slipped under them with Tyler.

Tyler nuzzled his head onto Joshs chest, a feeling of comfort enveloped him as he lightly whimpered out in content. They both knew that they were basically cuddling, but they didn't care at this point. They loved traveling around and playing music together, but early on Josh noticed the way it effected Tyler, how it brought the voices. So if he needed to cuddle and hold his bestfriend to help him stay sane- he would.

Tylers heavy breathing finally subsided within a minute or two as Josh held him. Josh found it comforting to, even if he didn't need it like Tyler- Josh acually really enjoyed holding the smaller male. Tyler matched his breathing pattern with Joshs and fully relaxed as their diaphragms expanded in sync. He knew at this point he could fall asleep with ease, but decided instead to risk making things awkward as he began to softly speak.
"Thank you, Josh." Tyler said with gratitude is his voice. "It's no problem." Josh spoke confidently, ensuring genuinely as he placed his hand on Tylers shoulder, he meant his touch to come off more bro - like but realized that was impossible since they were cuddling, but he didn't remove his hand even when he internally cringed at himself for implying intamicy with Tyler.

Tyler recalled Josh taking a long nap this afternoon and realized if he were to fall asleep on Josh he would probably be stuck laying there awake unable to... help himself fall asleep. Tyler smiled at the thought remembering all the times he secretly heard Josh stroking himself in order to fall asleep even though Tyler always told him if he napped he wouldn't be able to sleep, but Josh never learned, and thus continued the cycle of being up most of the night then napping the next day. But Tyler knew there would be no oportunity to nap with their busy schedule tomorow, so he softly spoke again "I'm okay now, if you want to go back to your bed."
Josh was slightly confused but replied "Do you want me to go.. I just figured we would sleep like this like usual..." Tyler didnt want to explain that he thought Josh might want to go jack off so he thought for a second then began "I just figured you wernt really tired so you might want to go do your own thing." Josh didn't catch on to what Tyler was implying, as usual, so Tyler internally cringed as he began to explain "We need to be at our best tomorrow so you need to sleep tonight, so you prolly need ta.. yah know..." he trailed his sentence off physically unable to speak the words "jerk" or even "off" as his head laid on his bestfriend. Josh was slow to the realization but once it hit him he went red with embarrassment. Tyler knew it would embarrass  Josh, because he's pretty shy with that kind of stuff, even though they had been friends for a few years. Tyler lifted his head off Joshs chest to look at his face as Josh brought his hands up to cover his large grin and squinting eyes. Tyler laughed out and spoke "Was that to forward?" "Yes Tyler, oh my gosh" he said laughing.
"Well I just know it helps you sleep, bro" he laughed "Are you telling me you've heard me jack off?" His blush darkend as he awaited Tylers reply.
"I mean.. yeah.. we've been traveling together for a while.. and your not as quite as you think you are." They both laughed and felt embarrassed. "Okay.. well.. not doing that anymore" he said in a half serious voice.
"Well its not like it bothers me.." Tyler admitted, which it didn't, in a strange way Tyler even took comfort in hearing his friend lightly muffle moans of pleasure, not wanting to wake his friend unknowing he was listening, and it was helping him remember he wasn't the only person alive.

After a minute or two they finished laughing and the embarrassment in the room mostly subsided. Tyler relaxed his head back on Joshs chest as they resumed their cuddling position. Tyler wasn't that tired anymore so he laid there and wondered what Josh was thinking about, maybe he was thinking about jacking off now- obviously not the act off physically jacking off in that moment, but just the thought of pleasuring himself in general.

After a moment Tylers mind wondered from thinking of Josh thinking of jacking off to just thinking of Josh jacking off- the skin on skin sound of it, the moaning, the heavy breathing, and those were just the things he heard- the thoughts that went through his mind...
Wait.. stop.. Tyler thought
why was he thinking this way about his bestfriend? Sure they were more intimate then most friends, but that was just because Tyler was fragile.. it's not like he had feelings for josh.
Tyler hadn't noticed that the exciting thoughts had caused him to begin breathing heavy until Josh spoke up "Are you okay"
The sudden voice startled Tyler out of deep thought and his hips bucked into Joshs thigh. They realized simultaneously that Tyler had an erection.
"Tyler are you hard?" Tylers eyes widened and he felt his stomach sink. He quickly removed his hard on from his friends thigh and whimpered in embarrassment, Josh kept hold of the smaller male, wanting to make it obvious he was not offended by the contact. "We're you having a sexual dream Tyler?" He asked, even though he didn't think Tyler had fallen asleep. "No" Tylers voice was muffled by his hands that were burying his face out of embarrassment, then he felt stupid realizing saying yes would have been an easy out.
"Did you want to jack off or something?" Josh asked, bringing back up the earlier conversation "no.. I mean.. that not.. that's wasn't my intention.. then I was just thinking of you..." Tylers sentence came to a halt as he realized what he said, his stomach sinking more. Josh flipped on the lamp that was beside the bed needing to look into Tylers eyes to be sure he heard what he just heard.
Tylers scared look confirms.
"Tyler..."
"I didn't mean.."
"Did you get hard thinking of me, Tyler" Joshs voice seemed confident and lacked embarrassment, he was serious and wanted the truth.
"Yes" Tyler said reluctantly, his voice frail as ever
"What exactly were you thinking about?" Joshs voice was hard to read but it didn't seem offended
"Your moaning.. and uhh.. breathing and stuff.." Tylers eyes were averting Joshs since he turned the light on.
"Touch yourself" Josh said, a little less confidently. Tyler was completly taken off guard.
"Wh-what?" he whined
"Take your cock out and stroke it." He said bluntly. Tyler was completly in shock, he'd never heard Josh speak like this, but he could tell he was serious.
"You think I've never thought about you laying in the next bed while I jacked off, Ty?" Tyler suddenly became aware of Joshs large hardend member not-so- concealed by his boxers, his eyes widened, Josh bit his lower lip noticing his suprized look.
"Ty" Josh broke the silence "I'm sorry I would have said something sooner if I knew you though of me too."
"But we're straight Josh" Tyler said as he made sure his erection was covered suddenly aware he'd grown harder from looking at Joshs endowment.
Joshs face softened as he noticed his forwardness startled his bestfriend.
"I'm sorry, I just.. you've heard my moans and I just wanted to hear you.." Josh said softly
Tyler swallowed autibly "Turn the lamp off" he said as he bit his lower lip feeling coy. But once the light went off he gained a little confidence. Tyler removed his shirt and laid his head on Joshs already bare chest - basically resuming their cuddling position from earlier but this time Tylers hand wasnt draped over Josh, it was holding his clothed erection.
Josh knew Tyler would have to ease into it and be in this position for comfort at first before stroking himself so he just let him breath and sync his breath with his for comfort.
Josh raised his hand to his chest and ran his fingers through Tylers hair for encouragement "I've got you, Ty"
Tyler was fully relaxed at this point so he pressed a kiss into Joshs chest and let go of his member which sprung out and touched Joshs thigh. Tyler raised his hand to Joshs abdominal muscles, and touched them as he kissed into his chest- Tyler was crazy about Joshs abs, but obviously could never touch them.

Josh let out a soft moan at the touch- trying to usher Tyler on. Which worked- Tyler raised his kisses from chest to neck. Josh could tell Tyler was still a little nervous because of how lightly he was kissing even though josh was moaning lightly and breathing heavy for him, so Josh decide to make the next move and place his hands on Tylers hips and move the smaller male from the side of him to on top- straddling him. Tyler quivered a little since he had never straddled a man before, but he was still very much turned on and finally moved his kiss to Joshs lips.

Josh let out a relived moan into Tylers mouth, but he knew he would have to be the one to initiate tongue, so he did- gently lapping his tongue over the smaller males.
Tyler suddenly became very aware of their erections on eachother as they made out.