every stud needs a lady

hard knock life

Everyday there is something different when it comes down to my mother  and me.  Don't get me wrong i love  her but she do the most i believe shes back on drugs but my heart want let me.  For the past 3 years my mother has been running from who and what i don't know. Every time i look up we have to move into a different house like what the hell, every time i ask whats going on she tell me stay in a child place like bitch i'm grown as hell. How rude let me introduce my self. my name is naja'nae (Nae ja nae)  i'm mixed i have beautiful eyes and a smile to die for, oh yes i have very deep dimples i have a nice size body , i mean its not all that but its something. I live in south Africa with my mom and my dad lives in america, where i only dream to go. My father is  an African and my mother is white. I don't know why  my mother choice to stay here other then move to America with my dad but hey, its the hard knock life, my mother hates me and so deos that no good as  husband of hers.  

"Nae get your ass down here" my mother yelled

I spoke her up, i hate leaving my room because i don't like the vibe i be getting from them two down stairs. "Always respect your mother" my daddy told me, so guess what... i got up and went down stairs yo see what the wicked witch wanted

"What" i spet 

"I need a couple dollars so me and Joe can go gout" she said

Joe just giving me that same look like he always does, making me so uncomfortable .  I just stood there not looking at him because i know if  i do he is either going to do 2 thinks 1 like his crusty white lips or blow me a kiss, see what my mother don't know is her so called husband is  a perv .

"Helllooo, i know fucking here me lil girl" my mother yelled

I picked my had up and looked at her, her once beautiful blue as that used to shine is dull her blonde hair that once hung down her back is so matted to her head you would never be able to tell that it once was healthy and lord please don't let me get on her once beautiful skin, that is now so pale. I broke out of my thought to my mother snapping her fingers ,

"Mom i don't have any money, you only give me 500 out if the 2000 you get a month and i spent that on stuff for school" i said 

I wouldn't dare tell her that i save all my money , she would probably beat me then take it all. I need to saves as much as i can and if you ask me i'm doing a damn good job. my father send 2000 every month for me and i never see it, i get 500 a month and that all, i take a 100 and put it in my pocket get everything i need and the money that i have left i hide it a way.

"Yeah what ever  i know you lien to me, call you father and tell him to send you some money now" she yelled, 

I just walked away because she always want me to do that, i hate asking my dad for money because i fell like if he sending me 2000 every month why do i need more , he probably think what does a 17 year old need all this money for, i know he would do it but i still hate it, me and my dad is really close he's legit my best friend other the KIA, but i call him anyways.

              PHONE CONVERSATION

After the 3rd ring my father picked up

"Shut the fuck up, my princess on the phone, " m father yelled

"Hey princess" everyone said. 

I just started laughing because when it come down to me my father does not play.

"hey chubs how are you"

"Dad, i'm to big for that name , what i tell you about that."

"Girl i can call you what ever with cha pissy ass"

I was laughing so hard i couldn't breathe i really was a piss pot when i was younger

"Anyways daddy, i need a favor"

"How much and don't think i don't know whats going on"

"What are you talking about i need the money to go sho..."

"Chubs in not slow, i know you not blowing 2 racks by your self, hell if i know you and your no good as momma like i think i do your not seeing that money. shes giving you some and shooting the rest up in her arms i know she been making you call me and ask for more money and i also know you been saving your money, i know you chubs, your my best friend, you cant hide anything from your old caddie, as you say. now wipe them tears 

I cant believe my dad just read me like an open book when we are miles a ways, but  should of known he was going to figure it out pretty soon, my dad knows me to well and he knows the things that i don't do. I wiped my face like my father told me to do and just started smiling like i love my dad. 

"Dad how do you always figure out whats going on, when you were know where close to being back , it kills me being here you made a promise and i dint think i can wait till i'm 18  that's so many years from know, i hate being here, i don't fell safe and rob always look at me in a weird way an.."

" The fuck you mean he always looking at you. Naja'nae is there something you hiding from me. 

I knew my dad was mad because he called me by my real name and not chubs or princess i'm sure he pacing the floor with his vain popping out the side of his head,

"Daddy stop walking and calm down i don't want that vain to pop in that big head of yours because i know it there. 

"Chubs have that man ever done something to you, or touched you any ways that made you hurt. i'm going to kill him i feel it chubs please don't tel me he touched you, i don't know what i would do if i let any nigga touch you i swear on my moth..,

"Daddy would you please chill, he never touched me he always just looked me and if i look at him he would either wink at me blow me a kiss or some weird shit like that. i never let him near me "

" You know what give your momma 200 from out your money and pack your shit your coming with me, i will be there tomorrow morning be ready chubs. I love you daddy gotta go."

" Okay and i love you too daddy"

I wakled down stairs and gave my mom the money she just smiled at me , i looked at her with a blank expression .

"Thanks baby girl, i knew you would help me out, " she said.

"Mom are you back on drugs, " 

She just looked at me and started scratching and twitching i knew right then and there that she was back on drugs. It doesn't take a rocket science to know that,

"Mom i will be leaving, my father is coming to get me tomorrow morning '

That cough her attention and Joe's because he jerked his head up so fast my mom looked at me with tears in her eyes, 

"Baby girl you cant just leave me i need you, your all i have, please i will get off the drugs and be a better mother'

i just looked at her and walked away, i cant take it any more. 

first chapter done, will try to update everyday