Why?

Chapter 10

Shizuo pov

I walked in Izaya's room and he was staring out the window. I could feel butterflies in my stomach as I approached him. I notice how pale his beautiful is. I sat on the chair next to the bed.

"Hey Izaya." Izaya turned his head to look at me and gave a small smile. I couldn't help but feel like some how this is all my fault.

"Hi..." Was Izaya managed to say. Just him saying that two letter word broke my heart a little.

"I might have something to get your memory back." I said as my heart skip a beat. I was excited to see his reaction.

"Really?" He said trying to sound not excited. but you could obviously tell he was excited. He was never a very good actor when it came to these kinda things.

"Yeah, but we have to wait until my friend can find it. Until then you can come back to my place and see if you can remember anything, sounds good?"

"Yeah, okay." Izaya got up, he almost fell face first on the floor, but I caught him. His head landed on my chest. "Whow are you okay?" I looked down at him with concern. Izaya slowly lift his head upward to towards me, his face got really red and he pushed his self off of me. "Y-yeah, I'm fine." he slowly walked over to his wheel chair and sat down.

We went downstairs to the front desk. There was a girl there who had red hair,  side bangs, a pony tale, and brown eyes. She looked kinda young to be working here. She looked up at us " yes, how may I help you?"

"I'm here to take Izaya Orihara home." The girl looked back at her computer screen. "Okay, hold on please." She started typing then looked back up. "Okay you're free to go, Izaya Orihara." She smiled at us as Izaya started to get up from his wheel chair. "Are you sure you can walk?" I grabbed his arm. "Yeah I'm sure," he polled his arm away from me.

**time skip**

On the way back to my place I was Izaya and I was walking in absolute silence, it was kinda awkward. When I went to say something I stopped because I heard a horse sound. I blurted out "It's Celty!" Izaya looked at me with confusion written all over his face. "Who's Celty?" I stopped to think, "um, no body. Lets keep walking." For 5 more minutes we walked in silence. I couldn't help but to look at him. When he looked at me I hurried and played it off like I wasn't looking at him. I heard Celty's bike again but I couldn't tell which direction it was coming from. I was starting to get nervous, but I didn't know why.

We walked up my steps to my house. I slowly opened the door and it started to squeak. Izaya and I walked in and headed to the living room. "Do you remember anything yet?"

"No, not yet..." I could tell by the tone of his voice he was feeling down. I grabbed his hand and went to our bedroom where we kept all of our pictures of each other. "Maybe this will help you jog your memories."

Izaya was looking around the room at all of the pictures. He grabbed one or me and him smiling at the camera with my arm rapped around his shoulder as we where doing peace signs with both of our hands. "Izaya, is something wrong?"

"I-I just really w-want to remember.." Tears fell on the picture. his expression made it look like he was in pain. Not the kind of face when you fall on concrete and hurt your leg but internal pain.

"I'm sorry.." I reached out my hand to try to comfort him. Before I was able to reach him the door bell rang. i sighed and left to answer the door.

Izaya pov

Shizuo left to answer the door. 'I don't know whats wrong with me. Why cant I remember anything? It looked like I had a good life I just wish I could remember it.' All I could do is stand there staring at a picture while drowning in my own thoughts trying to figure out how to get my memory back. there was some footsteps coming down the hall; i knew exactly who it wasn't. I wasn't sure how I knew but I just knew. It was Shizuo.

Shizuo pov

I walked back in mine and Izaya's room. "Izaya, you don't have to get worked up because you can't remember anything. It'll come to you. And besides I got something that can help you get your memory back." I said the last part kind of proudly.

Izaya turned to face me with a small smile. "R-really?"

"Yeah, actually my friend just drop it off. Do you wanna see if it works?" I turned around and walked out to the kitchen knowing Izaya would follow. "Y-yeah!" Hearing that made me smile.

I took out the medicine and handed it to him. He looked at it with a lot of hope. He hurried and took the medicine I gave him. "Well, how do you feel?"

"Uh, well I feel kinda tired n-" Before he could finish his sentence he passed out. I was kinda shocked, I didn't know that the medicine would do that to him but that's to be expected.

I picked him up and took him to the living room and laid him down one the couch covering him up with a blanket. My phone vibrated on the coffee table. I picked it up and looked at the caller ID before i answered it. "Hey, Shizuo!! how did the medicine work?" Shinra yelled excitedly in my ear.

"I don't know, he passed out like right after he took it." I sounded angry, trying not to throw my phone across the room.

"Good, then it's working. Oh, one more thing. Try not to sound angry to the person that just helped you out." Shinra said in a serous tone which made me more mad. "Well, keep me updated bye." With that he hung up the phone. I let out a deep sigh and looked at Izaya. 'Well, I guess all there's left to do is wait.'

Izaya pov

I woke up in total darkness just like before. 'What is this? Where am I? This feels like before but different.' I looked up and saw me and Shizuo but I don't remember this ever happening. It looked like we were having fun.

I looked over and saw another one but this one I was at Shizuo's house alone making lasagna. I felt my heart skip a beat and beat faster. 'I-I think I'm starting to remember now. There was this guy who called me and told me Shizu-Chan didn't love me.' Tears started running down my face.

'Oh, dear god. Shizu-Chan! I put him in so much pain. Why did I listen to that guy? I knew it wasn't true. Why!!??' I cupped my face. i heard a noise and I stopped to listen.

"Hey Izaya, I hope you wake up soon with your memory back. But remember what you did wasn't you fault. It was mine for not being there for you when you needed it the most." I knew that voice, it was Shizu-Chan. I started to get sleepy like before.

Shizuo pov

Izaya's eyes started to open. He looked kinda tired but I didn't care; I gave him a big hug. "Izaya you're awake! Do you remember me?" Izaya stayed quiet for a few. 

"I-I'm sorry Shizu-Chan. I d-didn't mean to make you suffer.." There was tears falling on the blanket. I smacked him across the face. He looked at me with surprised. He held his face where I smacked him. "Don't blame your self, it wasn't your fault. No one blames you for what happen so you shouldn't blame your self either."

Izaya looked down in deep thought. After awhile he started to smile. "I guess you're right, Shizu-Chan. I wont ever do that again." He gave me a quick hug than looked in my eyes. "I love you." I smiled and said back "I love you too."