The Swings [SEPTIPLIER Fanfiction]

Thoughts

Mark's pov

"Hey Mark, what do you think about how this smells like?" Wade starts a strange conversation. Without my response he put his hand in my face. I responded with a sour face and punched him in the arm. He laughs while I just throwed a handsanitizer bottle at him. I sighed afterwards and just ignored Wade. The rain and thunder was kicking in, helping the sounds of the yelling and students muffle.

My arm stings after it slid across the seat Infront of us. I just gripped onto it so the pain wouldn't hurt that much and to hopefully numb. It was more painful than when I am in the shower so I just made a reversed hissing noise by breathing in air, gritting my teeth.

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I walk off the bus which was full of noises and walked home. Why do I even go in the bus. It's been two weeks since I began driving home in the bus but it didn't feel right. Around me it was raining hard. My coat was drenched from the salt water from the sky. Thoughts come to my head every time a car comes by.
Should I walk into the road?
Should I just run?
Why can't I just get kidnapped and then killed?
Why do I still have friends?
I don't deserve anyone.
I never deserved anything.
I didn't want to think about how I could possibly end my life. I didn't even want to think of it but all I can do is listen and shockingly relate to every word it says. My house always felt so happy and just perfect but everybody has flaws and the flaw about my family is that one of us is suicidal. I reached my house after suffocating in my thoughts that kept repeating itself over and over again. It was quiet on my way there. Other than the sound of the harsh rain it was peaceful because the wind was weak. It's just the loneliness and the weird vibes I get that ruins it. The squeaking birds in their nests and flowing leaves on the trees are all I hear along with the wheels of the cars riding on top of puddles. I want peace and I want to be happy but I don't see the reason to be happy. I pushed the door open and took off my shoes. I walked up the stairs wearing my socks. The carpeted stairs were shockingly clean. Mom probably cleaned it before she left for a vacation to LA to meet our other relatives. The same familiar smell and scent emits out of my room which was pleasing to know since I can usually get messy. I then locked myself in my room after getting changed into a white tee and camouflaged pajamas pants. I took a deep sigh and forced a smile just so that I can get used to it more.

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After two hours of playing prop hunt with Amy and Wade online I turned off the computer and laid my face on my hands. After a couple of minutes thinking I just leaned back on my chair.

Ding. A strange sound that I don't get alot comes out of my phone which was on my bed. Walking to the bed I trip on my bag and fall on the floor. "Mm!." I sucked in my words and just gripped onto my knee and clenched my face as a reaction to the stinging pain. I got back up and grabbed my phone. When I looked at the date I remembered that three weeks my mom will be gone.
Amy
    Meet me at the park at 12:30pm :) I wanna talk. Ethan and Katherine will be there. Sadly Tyler is sick and being a bech.
Mark
Sure.

I responded in a 'I don't care' type of message. It was annoying how I am always in the middle of the attention in my class even though I am not interesting. I smile but my eyes always give it away. I never asked to be born, I never asked to be sad, I never asked to be befriended. Reacting to my thoughts with a hard and long sigh leaning back onto my pillows my mind wonders about.

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10:00pm damn I am going to be late probably. After getting dressed into a coat I rushed out locking the door afterwards. My breath became steam. I got into my bike and rode to the park which was a couple miles away.

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Reaching the park I stumbled into a man who has aqua green hair  who was walking. He was adorable, his nose was pink, his cheeks are pink, and he seemed like he was blushing but also has the same eyes as me in a way. His blue eyes was so alluring but also looks like it's calling for attention.

I pushed the breaks as I almost crashed into a bush. I parked my bike and waked to the swings which were in the middle of the park. The rain turned into snow and was melting on my hair with some that just sat on my shoulders melting afterwards. I kept my hands inside my pockets and head inside my scarf, eyes and cheeks showing. After a while of walking I dropped the scarf off of my mouth and just admired the scenery. Smoke emitting off of my mouth from the cold weather.

Remembering about the man I saw before I thought to myself about how everything could be possibly going better for him. After a while I had a couple thoughts come to mind. I giggle at the idea of me actually ending up hitting it off with him. Along the way I saw only a couple groups of kids about my age hanging about. For a Friday it seemed like this would be where most people would come to because of how peaceful it was.

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Just encountering the last turn I had to take to reach the swings my thoughts came in faster and faster, my head started aching and tears fled my eyes. I began feeling very terrified and worried. I was having a panic attack. After a while of trying to calm down, I was on the grass with my head in my arms trying to calm down. I grabbed my phone out for my pocket and tried catching my breath. It was 11:45pm. My legs felt weak and my eyes were sore. My red dyed hair covering my eyes, messy. I get up and dust myself off before continuing onto my tracks. I reached the swings but my legs didn't move and was stations when I saw someone familiar sitting on the one swing I usually sat on. The athletic man looked in my eyes and was staring at me. I blinked a couple times before forcing a smile. He looked away but I giggled seeing that I managed to catch his stare. I walked to him as the wind blew my hair being slightly annoying.

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Author's note:

Hey there! It's been like a week or maybe 5-6 days since the last chapter and am sorry. I had been busy and was able to finish it today :)

So I don't have much to say so I'll tell you about some of my social media that you could follow if you'd like.

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Yesterday (today's Saturday) I went to the therapist and it didn't help much but I am so chill.

I hope to continue this book. :) I like the fog and snowy theme along with a cozy and warm house or safe house I suppose.

Thanks for reading this chapter! I hope for you to read the next one! Bye!!