Hannily - Bestfriends or more

Emily POV
-------
It's been 3 months since I've felt good about myself. I come home everyday and cry to myself about how useless and hopeless my life is. Paige cheated on me with Jenna of all f---- people JENNA . Maya dead. Alison dead. I attract dead people, it's all me I'm such a horrible person, well that's at least what my mom and dad tell me who have not fully accepted the fact I'm gay. Sure I have Hanna Aria and Spencer but I can't spend time with them without thinking about how bad I'm making there life's. So I've resorted in ignoring them maybe they will realize they are better without me. looking back on the past year how weak I was and how strong I became all for what nothing this weak empty pit in my stomach. I have nobody to go to I don't want to burden somebody else's happy life with my imperfectness.

I'm sitting on the floor of my room leaning on my bed. I grab the razor I placed under my bed and stare at it. this is becoming a daily habit for 6 weeks now I come home after I work myself to practical death in the gym since I can't do anything else right then sit and stare at my reflection in this go* da** razor. when I pick it up I feel so much power then I think about my life and how far I come and end up talking myself out of running the blade across my bare skin. As if it would make my situation any better.

I change out of my clothes in to work out gear and grab my iPhone and head phones and head out the door.

Before I start running I check my phone 4 new text 1 voicemail all from Hanna

Maybe she needs me I think but quickly remind myself I'm eliminating myself from there life's to make there life's better.

I ignore the messages and begin jogging.

After 15 minutes of jogging I find myself in the woods lost in my music.

"HEY watch where your going bi*** " I hear somebody yell at me over my music blasting in my ears

I look up and am startled at what I see and apparently she is too

"Paige" I say to myself so inaudible I barely hear myself

"Em I'm sorry I didn't see it was you" she says in a soothing tone

"DONT EVER CALL ME THAT, EVER AGAIN" I yell at her

"Emily I'm need to talk to you" she says

"I don't care what you need to do" I reply harshly and begin jogging in the other direction

I feel her grab my arm and pull me back. I reluctantly turn around

" Well I'm sorry this isn't the ideal situation Emily, I've been meaning to call you" I roll my eyes at this remark and turn back around

"Common Emily I'm sorry I hurt you, I never planed on hurting you."

"Well what the fu** did you mean to do then cause it fu***** hurts." I say again yelling luckily there is nobody around to hear this. I know I shouldn't be yelling but I haven't talked to anybody in 2 months I just have all this anger built up.

"Em you know if I could re do it I would never hurt you"

"I said don't FU***** CALL ME THAT"

Then some stupid ringtone that's not mine goes off

Paige looks down at her phone " hey sorry I gotta take this maybe we can be friends one day"

"Hey babe, noo noo I'll be over in a second Jenna." I hear her say into her phone off into the distance she says it like she wants me to hear it. I ignore the building up anger and continue running




Hanna POV
----------

Why won't she pick up. I need her. I need to talk to her she always know how to make me feel better. Even if she picked up the phone I wouldn't be focused on me that would be selfish. Emily comes to school everyday with her head down and doesn't speak to anybody she skips lunch. it's been 3 months since the Paige sh** happened and it's been 2 months since she went a wall. no matter how hard we try she won't talk to any of us. God I want to strangle Paige make her suffer how could somebody be so heartless especially to Emily. perfect innocent Em. she wouldn't hurt a fly. nobody deserves this but especially not Em if I could trade positions with her I would in a heart beat. it breaks my hear not to see her happy. now Im alone, Caleb is in Ravenswood why would I let him go I need him. he's probably sleeping with this Miranda chick it's disgusting he won't return my calls or emails and I feel broken without Emily or Caleb.


"Hey Em it's me I just need to talk to you I hope your ok I hope you know I need you in my life I don't know what to do without you. it's been long enough please talk to me, I need to hear your voice." if you are satisfied with your message press 1 to delete it press 2

I send her the message hoping she won't listen to it. I should be sending that message to Caleb not her. I should be a little more basic with Emily she's just my friend. But she is my bestfriend it it's different she's not like aria and spencer she means more to me then them. sure they are my bestfriends but me and me have always been better friends.

Ok I'm sick of this waiting around like a puppy for its owners to return. I grab my keys and get into my car. I start driving to Emily's house hoping she's there not out working out. that's all she does now school practice and work out.

Don't get me wrong all the extra work is really giving her a smoking hot body but she's lifeless going through the motions everyday.

This isn't the first time I've tried to show up at her house but it is the first time I've been alone. spencer and aria were there the 1st 2nd and the 3rd time we didn't make it past her mom the first time and the 2nd and 3rd time we got pass her mom because you could tell she was worried about Em but Emily shut her bedroom door in our face. hope fully this will work I need her



-------------

So I'm writing a haleb fic to ill post when I get a chance but I have to try this Hannily fic If it's not good let me know an I'll delete it but I want to give it a try I love Hanna/ ashley and Emily/ shay friendship and I totally ship so imma give this a try bc I've noticed there is a lot of people who ship. Them and there friendship .