If This Was A Movie (Want You back Squeal) - James Maslow & Ariana Grande

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Fake Smiles

Ariana's POV

"Ariana over here"

"Big smiles"

Red carpets.

I always hated them

Tonight's red carpet - movie premier, Hunger Games Mockingjay Part 1

I was invited to this i don't know why

So I had to fly out to LA and stay with Frankie for 3 days

They guys were happy to see me as in Kendall, Logan and Carlos.

James was no where to be found

I didn't even ask.

Of course these 3 days were filled with all fake smiles and laughter

I was alone for this one, No Taylor or Alexa, none of the guys were invited to this

Only Lucy but she at the other end of the carpet and seats are not near each other

The voices and photographers yelling my name slowly faded.

As my head was pounding

My headaches have been getting worse with all the yelling

I felt like I couldn't hear a thing

I walked away from the carpet, i need to sit down, in quiet.

Hear there will be non

This would be the last of the flashes and sounds

5 photo shoots tomorrow and the next day to catch up on all I have missed since I left

Was I going mad?

Mental breaking down?

I don't know

All I want to do is cry uncontrollably

I'm very close to that point.

"Can i have some water please?" I ask, a water bottle was handed to me in a second

I chugged half of it down

"Ari you ok?" I can just hear

Lucy as the only one keeping me standing has she held me.

I shake my head.

"Come on" she pulls me to the bathroom

Where did she come from? Thats Not important I need her with me

"Let it out"

I let loose

I cried "i don't know whats wrong with me"

"Recovery is a long painful road Ari, especially from what you've been through with him. Its hurts worse then hell. not all once but soon all this pain will slowly fade away"