When i was younger i never thought about things like depression and suicide ( which sound logical since i was a kid ) Even until 2 years ago i never expected my life to make this kind of awful turn
I was born in october 2001 in a small town in the Netherlands
As a kid i was always bubbly and happy, There was never a moment i wasnt smiling or laughing i was just.. Happy. Something thats rare for me now.
My parents divorced and my sister and me spent most of our time with our mum.
We still saw our dad, but not much.
Whenever we were at my dads house we had so much fun and just spent lots of time together.
I dont look like my dad. I look more like my mom
But if you look at my personality its more like my dads (If you know what i mean :P)
My dad loved me and my sister with all his heart.. And we loved him :)
My dads family HATED me,
Because i didnt look like my dad.
My dad has black hair and dark eyes
So does my sister
I have blonde hair ,bright green eyes and pale skin just like my mom.
But they couldnt accept that and prefered my sister over me.
Which still hurts to this day.
In 2010 my dad commited suicide.
He hanged himself, And i ..
I felt nothing when i heard that.
No tears
No anger
Just confusion.
Okay.. it sounds weird and maybe heartless
But i felt nothing
Maybe its cause i was 8 at the time (I am 15 now)
After my dad died i got anger issues, the same my dad always had.
My mum said that i never acted like this before my dad died. It just happend after he died.
YOU ARE READING
My life
RandomMy life sucks.. and what do you do when youre going through all that? youre writing bout it :) I really hope you enjoy this story im not finised with it but ill be adding chapters every week :) (ps english isnt my native language)
