My life

Januari 2017

This care farm shit gave me a lot of anxiety and i hated it,

i felt like i had to be the perfect daughter with perfect behavior to just to keep living in my own house.

Im not perfect im far away from that so is my behavior i can get pretty angry but only when people lie in my face, which my mom does alot.

Everything cooled down for a couple of weeks and i thought i was fine.

One saturday morning i was waking up and my mom walked into my room and said : you should get out of bed were going to '(name of the carefarm)' and then walked away, I was pissed.

I told her i wasnt going and she said i was.. My sister didnt know at the time what was going on so i called her and explained everything,

She called my mom and asked her if she could come too.

my mom was fine with that and i was happy because i thought she was going to protect me .. boy was i wrong.

We arrived and it looked like a piece of shit, Or thats what i thought.

Some women welcomed us and immediately i hated her.

Just because i got a weird vibe from her + her eye makeup was messed up just like that place.

She gave us a tour while it was busy as shit there, it was crowded with little kids and teens from my age.

Then we had a little talk and she told me ''I know you dont like it here but you shouldnt look so mad''

Thats what pissed me off, Luckily we left minutes later and i was crying because i wanted to live in my own house.

My mom told me that she would go there if she was me, and i said ''well thats why youre not me''.