May, 11th.
I don't think I can hold myself anymore. This feeling... the urge to tell someone your true feeling.... "Idk if I'm ready for this... For the first time in forever~~ I like someone in my life.... Lol! Ok BE SERIOUS!!! You got this, buddy!", I thought to myself... I open my FB and typed my password and log in and open his profile and.............
I just stood there like and idiot and stared blankly. Like this emoji here -> 😐
It took me half an hour to text him... Okay! Here we go!!
Me: Hey!
McGrath: Yo!
Me: I wanrfjyrdvhfhjfbjdjyydycgcjvhvhjfg
McGrath: Wt#? (Yeah... he like to type like that... he called it Le Grath Style -_-)
Me: I want to telkgrxhfsggucjssutcjhvgb
McGrath: What?! Tell me.. It's okay! I'm cool!
Me: You sure you won't be mad?
McGrath: Mad? Ppfftt.. About what anyway... I'm too lazy to be mad today B)
Me: Promise you won't be mad whatsoever. Promise?
McGrath: I promise.
Me: I just want to tell you... that I.... I...think that I....
McGrath: You what? You like me? Haha I will be surprise if you tell me that, my dear!
Me: *fall from bed* *knee shaking* (Shot! How did he know? Did he just call me DEAR?? OHMYGODIMDYINGRIGHTHERE!!!!!!) Urrrmmm... actually that what I want to tell you...
McGrath: Ouh umm.....
McGrath: ............................
Me: You there?
McGrath: Uurmm...
McGrath offline
(Five minutes later)
McGrath: I'm sorry I can't accept your feeling because my mom told me to study and I'm still a student and it not because you're not pretty or what I mean you so pretty but I just can't I mean......
McGrath: Ugh!!!! I'm sorry...
Me: Nah! It's okay. (It's totally not okay you freaking adorable god-like human if you're here I will kill you and I will the-) I'm okay here :)
Me: Well... I'm tired... goodnight then.
McGrath: Goodnight......
McGrath: .............dear.
McGrath is offline
Sukky is offline
Wow... I feel something..... I cannot breathe properly...and my chest is so hurt... I guess this is what they call BROKEN-HEARTED... It really hurt actually. Well, if you want to study.... then... we will 'STUDY'!!! And guess what... IT NOT THAT EASY TO MAKE ME GO AWAY!!!
I...
WILL...
GET...
YOU...
ONE DAY...
BEGGING AT MY FEET...
BELIEVE ME...
*inhale and exhale heavily*
I'm not gonna cry anyway. I'm not gonna waste my tears on someone that doesn't deserve this... he not worth it to cry for. He just a dummy boy... okay Sukky... you got this. I promise to myself that I will never ever cry again! But I will punch wall instead (And that habit still stick to me since that day.... True story). I need to get ready for tomorrow. Fake smile, checked! Thick mask, checked!
One last thing......
Time to throw this broken fix less heart under my bed. *pretend to pull out my heart* *accidentally drop it on floor* *pretend to pick up that broken pieces and throw it far away under my bed* "DONE! That should do it", talking to myself and fall in sleep instantly.
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Typical Girl's Life
Roman d'amourSukky just a playful little girl when she's in primary school. Until she like someone for the first time.... and sadly that guy was her best friend. But little did she know that guy.... was a problem. When she grown up, she was now a cold-hearted...
