The Christmas BBS Special [2016]

Please Don't Jump (It's Christmas) [MiniCat]

Written by: emotnlssmarcher

!!possible trigger warning!!

word count: 3122 words.
based on 'please don't jump (it's christmas)' by dallon weekes.
merry christmas/hannukah/kwanzaa to however celebrates it! and if you don't, i hope you have a great day nonetheless :)
thank you so much to sara for inviting me to take part in this, i hope you enjoy!
-max, @emotnlssmarcher

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another year's over,
the snow starts to fall
just like you would if you ended it all
but tonight's not the night
if only you'd answer my calls
please pick up now

it's that time of the year again.
christmas. it's snowing, it's cold, everyone's buying last minute gifts, spending the time with their loved ones, doing stuff that people usually do. it's everyone's favorite time of the year.
except for one person.
tyler never liked christmas.
he didn't know if it was because he lived alone, or because all his friends were away, or because of his depression that had been eating him away for ten years, or that he genuinely didn't like christmas.
he honestly thought it was a waste of time. spending money on stuff and calling them 'presents', making so much food and end up only eating half of it, putting up a dead/fake tree and decorating it. 
tyler always had this habit of falling of this state of depression every single christmas, where he just lays down doing nothing but drink his feelings away to the point where he feels numb, the sound of the party happening next door in the background. other times he would sit on the roof, staring at the stars and the christmas lights on the houses in his neighbourhood, and wondering if to jump or not and just end his long suffering.
well here he is again, laying on the same old floor, no alcohol in his system yet, but he didn't feel a thing. he was staring at the ceiling, listening to the laughter and the yelling that was coming from next door. they sounded like they were having so much fun. his eyes started watering, the feeling of loneliness suddenly filling him up. 
he wiped his eyes and got up, starting to head to the roof. he walked by his phone, which had no notifications. no calls, no messages. not even from his family. he stopped talking to them a long time ago anyway.
he made it to the roof and sat down close to the edge. he could feel the cold wind through his thin jacket, not really caring about being cold. it wasn't snowing, but it looked like it was about to. it was peaceful; but the only thing that wasn't peaceful was tyler's emotions.
he stood up, the sudden urge to jump suprising him. he had never attempted to, but he had thought about it so many times. it always... scared him. the idea of dying seemed so peaceful yet so horrifying at the same time.
he started breathing heavily, and started feeling as everything else around him was becoming closer, as he was staring at the ground below him, the urge to jump was becoming stronger. he clenched his fists and lowered down an inch, getting ready to leap.
''HEY!''
tyler turned around and saw a tall man with short brown hair and glasses standing outside his house, staring up at him. his face had a scared expression and his eyes were wide open. he was wearing a black coat and a scarf around his neck, it was pretty cold after all. tyler didn't knew how he managed to be in a thin jacket in such weather, but nothing really mattered to him anymore.
the man yelled something again that tyler couldn't make out, it was along the lines of, ''don't do it'' or something. when tyler didn't respond, he started walking closer to tyler's house. he shouted again, with a slight english accent, ''please don't jump.''
tyler kept being silent.
''p-please. it's christmas.''
''which is exactly why i'm doing it.'' tyler said quietly, but loud enough so that the man heard him.
he seemed suprised that tyler responded, but also confused by his answer. ''what do you mean by that?''
tyler didn't say anything, he just took a step closer to the edge.
''HEY HEY! woah there buddy, please don't do it, i-'' the man nervously called, taking more steps closer to tyler's house. ''i know we don't know each other but, i-it's not worth it, especially now, it's the holidays!'' he exclaimed. ''so please don't jump, cause it's christmas, and not worth it.''
tyler still has his back turned at him, not talking. but he wasn't moving either, and he didn't knew why.
''you can't turn away from your problems, you know.'' the man said. tyler rolled his eyes and continued ignoring him.