Illness

Intro

Cha Jae Hee
11:45 pm

Solhee: Ya Jaehee! Remind me about
our research tomorrow okay?!

Okay I will :D : Jaehee

I closed our conversation and went back to my profile when a new post popped out on my wall

Lee Hakyeon posted a photo

He just happened to post a picture of him and a girl. I just stared at it intently and agony had started flooding my brain. I am having a little war with myself if I'm going to click like or not...

Who is she

I just went to the comments and there I saw a lot of infos about the two of them

Choi Ji Won: Woah! Oppa with some chick!
Lee Tae Hyuk: who's that chick?
Lara Kim: #OTP ♡♡♡
Kim Namjoon: nice! Finally taken?!

Those comments didn't bother to me, except for his caption

Finally found her

I was crestfallen and my stomach abruptly felt odd. I have been liking him for a year now, and destroyed what we had in the past, so stupid of me right?

Solhee had been telling me to get over him, but then I can't. She thought I had finally moved on from him but the truth is I haven't.

Actually, Hakyeon and I were childhood buddies but when I started to discover affection towards him, I stayed away from him. As far as possible. I felt bad ofcourse but the thing is I am scared to tell him about my feelings, I am scared that it might ruin our friendship and it really did. He asked me why I became distant all of a sudden. I never did told him the reason and made myself forget about our friendship like nothing happened. He too forgot about our friendship and we barely talk to each other now.

I stood up from my seat and went to bed instead

How stupid of me to waste our friendship
just because of this?

I feel really bad for him

My eyes started to water and tears had finally came pouring out, making my pillow sheets soggy. Thoughts of him had been choking and haunting me as if I murdered someone. I am such a lowkey for this,

I guess I'll just have to suffer this guilt forever

Jeon Jung Kook
11:40 pm

Saeyool:
Jungkook, are you busy
tomorrow?

Jungkook:
Why?

Saeyool:
Can you come with me
to the Mall, I want to buy a
new dress for my date with...
you know ;)

Again, she's talking about it

Jungkook:
With that Kyungwon?

Saeyool:
Hahaha! Uhm no?
That guy is a douche, I have
someone in mind now

Jungkook:
Huh? Who is it this time?

Saeyool:
It's for you to know and
for me to keep ;)

Jungkook:
Well, you owe me something
tomorrow for coming with you

Saeyool:
Ofcourse! Oops! Gonna stop right
here, my namchin calling me
gudnyt kookie ;D

I started cough and hurl again. I have been suffering this for a year and I am sick of it

I wiped my mouth and stared at the sink. I turned the faucet on to wash away the scrap that came from my mouth. I looked up to my reflection in the mirror and thought about me being all stupid and shit

I never had the gut to tell her what I feel and how it hurts seeing her with him

I'm tired of this shit

Saeyool and I were friends since 9th grade, because she was new that time and I happened to sit beside her. We became friends because nobody ever did talk to her or make friends with her. Until I had this feelings showing up inside. I was anxious to tell her what I feel for her, thinking she might never talk to me ever again and I know it could ruin our friendship.

I'm a fool and hopeless when it comes to her

[What do you think happend to Kookie?]