we had finally arrived at my house, we drove up the dirt driveway and josh parked his car infront of the garage. he walked around to my side of the car and opend the door for me. " here you go" i looked up at josh and stared into his eyes, and i said something i thought i would never say " josh do you think you can spend the night so im not alone " the was a akward silence and then he responded " i would love to" i grabed his hand and we walked in. i told josh to make himself at home, then i ran upstairs to grab him a pair of sweat pants and t-shirt that were way to big on me to sleep in. i dont even know why the hell i still have them. then i walked into my room to grab my journal and camera. i walked back down stairs and saw josh sitting on the couch. i handed him the clothes. he took them and placed the beside him on the couch. " Mia" "ya" " can i tell you something" " ya go ahead" " okay well lots of people know this but i don't think you do, when i was in high school i had bulimia and i did herion" the was a small pause then he spoke again " i have been clean for a while now and thats what my tatoos mean the represent me being clean for my first and second year" now i wanted to tell josh about my cutting. " well then i guess that i can tell you that when i was 6 years old my dad had died from cancer" " i am so sorry to here that Mia" " i'm not done yet, when i was 12 my mom got re-married and i didn't wan't her to because i didn't want anyone eles being my father so i got extreamly depressed and i started to cut myself it was the only way i could get away from the pain" i looked at josh he looked sad " Mia listen to me you'r not alone i did the same" i picked up my camera and snaped a picture of josh it instantly came outbecause i had one of those old poloroid cameras that prints out the picture when you take it. i must say he looked incredibly hot in it. " what was that for" i put the picture in my journal and wrote underneath it. i handed the book to josh and he read it " the only person that understands" than josh picked to camera up and took a picture of me put it in my book and wrote something in it. he handed it to me and i read it out loud " the only one that understands me ~ josh" i looked at josh and raped ,y arms around him are faces were inches apart then i drew the space in between us closed and i kissed him his arms around my waist and mine around his neck. i pulled away " what was that for" " your the only one that understands me" then i left and walked upstairs into my bedroom closed the door behinde me and floped down on my bed thinking about Krissy.
( joshs p.o.v)
i woke up to the sound of my phone going of who the hell would be texting me at 3 in the morning. i turned it on to see a text from Mia.
Mia// i cant sleep
Me// count sheep
Mia// can i come over
Me// ya it's ur house
Mia// ohh ya ill b over right now
i herd a soft knock at the door then Mias head poped in. " i can't sleep" she came to the other side of the bed and crawled under the covers turning to face me. " me too" i looked at the tatoo on her wrist, it said so soon " what does your tatoo mean" she looked down and traced over the delicate letters " i got this tatoo when i was 16 it says so soon because when my mom got merried for me it was soon soon and the blue heart it because my dads favorite color was blue. the reason why it's on my wrist is to cover my scars" i loved Mia for being able to talk about this freely " and i promised myself that when i found someone who loved me for who i am i would get another tatoo on this wrist to cover the other scars". she held up her wrist and traced the scars. Mia wraped her arms around me burrying her head in my chest. i then drifted into a deep sleep. i guess i had only slept for a hour befor i was woken up by someone crying. i got up and looked around the room i saw a small figure curled up in the chair onfront of the window, i knew who it was it was Mia. i got up slowley and walked up behinde her . " whos there" she said she sounded very depressed." don't worry it's me josh" she got up and wraped her arms around me crying hard choking on her tears. " what happend" " i had a dream that......" " what" "Krissy she was ... she was DEAD" i didn't care about anything now i just needed to comfort Mia " okay how about in the mornig we go and visit her" " ok" i took her hand and led ger to the bed holding her close and covering us both with the sheets. i slowley sang a luliby and we both fell asleep
