**This story is in several parts, each part will be seperated by a bracket saying what the next part will be about.**
(You and The Magician)
Every time they go there they do it. You always want to watch but you can't. You feel awkward, you feel out of place, you feel like you don't belong. Even though you do, you know you do. Even though you just came back from something where you are important. But you never feel like you belong, so you just shrug it off and keep going.
(You and The Audience)
You always watch, you always play along, you laugh when they do, you applaud when they do. You do it all. Everything. Just, from a distance. You wish it didn't have to be this way, but it does.
(Just You)
It has to be this way or it will upset the balance of the universe; Or at least you tell yourself that so you don't feel like as much of a failure, even though you know deep down you're not a failure at all. You're a strong independent *and sarcastic* young woman.
(You and Other people)
You don't think you are, but in all fairness nobody thinks they are; they all think that other people are better and then they forget themselves and they to be clones of whoever looks the best, acts the best or (in their opinion) is the best at that time. And when they do that they're just wasting their time, so you just stay as you are and regret it all the time.
(You and The Magician)
But. Oh well nothing is going to change, it's not like you're ever going to say more than a passing hello, nevermind have the courage to. That's just the way things are, you're you, a 15 year old girl with a lack of self esteem and confidence. And they are them, also a 15 year old but with confidence to spare and a pack of cards always at hand if they see an opportunity to shock and amaze people. You two are almost opposites, but only almost, you're not quite there yet thankfully.
