"You play too many games Justin. I'm over it."
"You're not even trying to hear me out... please baby, you belong with me. You're mine."
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Tae-Marie Willams & Justin Bieber struggle with the pressures of being a young couple in hollywood.
It's been a month since I found out about Justin & his cheating. I've managed to completely avoid & ignore his on going calls. He literally calls like 20 times a day non-stop. He's tried to go through all my friends, family & even Jen to get a hold of me but I've made it crystal clear to them that I do not want to speak to his ass in any sort of way at this moment in time. Nobody really knows what's going on with us expect Mia and Cam which I prefer cause all the talk will just drive me crazy.
The media has already gone crazy with the tweets that I had made a couple of days ago. I'll put my hands up to that and say that wasn't really the smartest move I've made. I mean could you blame me I just found out my boyfriend wasn't being faithful. My emotions were all over the place. I normally keep to myself and keep my private life private. I don't like the public eye all up in my business but it's very hard considering that my whole career is based on that factor.
I haven't left my house in what feels like forever and to be honest I don't plan on leaving anytime soon. Mia and Cam have been trying to get me out of my house and be somewhat of a normal human being. I honestly just want to be left alone and be given some space to just breathe and think things through.
Everything is all still fresh to me – I've been driving myself crazy as to how I never managed to see any of the signs, going over all the times he lied to my face and told me he loved me. Reliving all the beautiful moments we shared as a couple all for it to be crushed with mental visuals of him and Hailey all over each other without me having the slightest clue. I felt like a fucking fool. Was I not enough? Did he ever even love me? Was it all fake? I needed answers but I wasn't sure if I was entirely ready for them.
I buried myself in what I knew best and that was my music. I poured out all my emotions through my writing it was very therapeutic and I felt a bit better whenever I did. I wanted to go to the studio today and record something maybe help me take my mind off everything that's going on in my life right now.
Justin
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She's completely shut me out. I don't know what to do with myself I feel like a complete and utter Idiot I let all this other shit cloud my thoughts, I don't what's wrong with me I had a good girl that loved and treated me so good and I royally fucked everything up for nothing.
I never thought she would find out about Hailey and I sneaking around. She hasn't even tried to confront me about the whole situation. I've tried to contact her through every way possible but I've had not luck. Her friends and family have completely blocked me away from her which is probably under her orders. Knowing that she doesn't even want to speak to me is enough for me to go crazy. I know she just needs her own space right now but I have to talk to her.
