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[Chapter Eight | Really? ]

Song - HER - Losing

Tae

As soon as he entered the room the mood shifted. Why? Why the hell is he here. I really don't want to see his goddamn face right now. I've been trying to escape him and he goes and follows me here. Camila's eyes shifted between Za and I. She looked apologetically at me and gave Za the look of death. She obviously didn't know he was going to bring his friend along. This whole thing is just hella awkward right now.

"Uh, hey guys what's going on?" Camila spoke breaking the awkward silence that was currently in the room.

"We're going to get some dinner remember" Za simply stated completely ignoring the elephant in the room.

Whilst Cam & Za continued their ongoing conversation. I pretended to scroll through my phone. This whole situation was making me feel uneasy. Just being in his presence brought back all these emotions I thought I was slowly but surely getting over. He hasn't said one word since he entered the room which was unlike him but considering the circumstances it's probably best he remains silent. I didn't make any sort of eye contact but I could feel his burning gaze.

"So are you guys gonna to join us for dinner?" Za asked bringing me back into reality.

"Nah. I'm good" I quietly mumbled as I kept scrolling through my phone.

"Well Cam & I are gonna get going now" He spoke.

"Cool. I'ma bout to leave anyway so I'll see you guys later." I stated completely ignoring the fact that Justin was even in the room. I was not going to pay him any attention and anything he wanted to say I didn't want to hear it.

"Alright girl, I'll call you later" Cam spoke as she made her way out the door. I low key feel like this was a damn set up. Why the hell I'm I being left alone in a room with this dude. Ugh.

I started to gather up my things not paying any mind to the fact Justin was here alone with me in this damn studio right now. I haven't seen or spoke to him in what felt like forever and I don't plan or starting now.

Justin

When I found out that Za was going to meet Camila in the studio and Tae was going to be there I figured that it was the only chance I would get to talk to her and explain myself. I wasn't gonna even lie I was scared shitless to finally face her. She probably hates my guts right now but I needed to see her again and let her know that everything was all a mistake and that I was truly sorry and I need her back in my life.

I didn't say a word the whole ride there. I tried to get my thoughts together I had no idea what I was even going to say to her or how she was going to react. Za was trying to make me feel better, he was probably gonna catch some heat for even bringing me along but he's my guy so he said he would take this bullet for me.

We finally arrived at the studio where Tae normally records. It was so fucking awkward once we got there. The whole vibe was weird. It broke my heart at the fact I couldn't just go up to Tae hug and kiss her.

She completely ignored my presence and never once made eye contact. I couldn't take this. She was just as beautiful since the last time I had saw her. Although she was wearing sweats her hair was tied up and she was barley wearing any kind of makeup she was still so gorgeous. Tae always looked so flawless even without trying. Her cocoa skin tone was always so enticing. Damn I really fucked up. She was too good for me.

If looks could kill, I would probably be dead with the way Camila was staring at me. I don't blame her I mean I did hurt her best friend I guess the least of what I deserve. I remained silent until Za & Cam finally left.

The room remained silent as I try to gather what I wanted to say. I had to think quick cause she was going to leave and I was going to look stupid.

"Tae can we please talk." I finally spoke up.

"About what." She spat out. Finally looking up at me for the first time since I entered the room.

"Baby please just let me explain myself" I pleaded

"I'm not your baby Justin" She simply said. When she said that It felt like someone stabbed me in the chest. I let out a sigh and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Tae will you please just hear me out" I continued to plead.

"What. What could you possibly have to explain Justin." She spat out dropping her bag.

"You're a fucking liar and a cheat. You stood there a lied to my face about you and Hailey and now what. You want to come here and explain yourself. You have some damn nerve Justin." She finally snapped at me. I could hear the frustration and pain in her voice.

"Tae I really do love you. That wasn't a lie. I made a dumb mistake I just wanted attention. I know I fucked up" I spoke trying to explain myself.

"And you think that's okay Justin!? Do you even understand how much you've hurt me? I really did love you and you completely broke my heart. I gave you everything but you were too busy to realize cause you were going around fucking other bitches" she was on the verge of tears and I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and tell her I'm sorry.

"You know what Justin. Leave. I don't want you in my life anymore. I don't want to have to deal with this fucking bull shit anymore, you or your fucking side hoes. Just please leave me alone!!" She screamed pushing me in the chest with all her might. She was tiny compared to me so it didn't really do anything. Her words crushed me and seeing her this distort completely tore my heart into pieces.

Tae continued to go off at me and hit my chest. I I managed to grab a hold of her wrists and force her to look at me. He eye were glossed over and tears streamed down her face.

"Justin get the fuck off me!" She yelled as she tried remove herself from my grip.

"Tae please calm down." I tried to reason with her whilst I still had my grip on her.

"I know you don't want anything to do with me right now and I understand that but Tae you need to understand I really do love you. I made a fucking stupid mistake and I'm truly sorry. I know I don't deserve you but I can't just let you go. I need you in my life." I spoke trying to get everything I've been meaning to say.

Tae managed to get herself out of my grip backed up and just stood and stared at me. I felt like she was staring right into my soul. She wiped the tears from eyes with her sleeve and paced a little back and forth as if she was trying to figure everything out which she always did when she was either anxious, angry or frustrated. I'm guessing she was all three right about now.

"I can't do this with you anymore Justin. I'm mentally and emotionally drained. You say you love me and can't live without me but you turn around and go do something like that to me." She sighed and ran her fingers through her beautiful curls.

"I'm done Justin. Just please leave me alone." She finally said as she picked up her bag and left.

When she was gone it felt like a piece of me left too. Before thinking I grabbed the nearest thing close to me which was a vase of some sort and threw it against the wall.

How could I let the love of me life walk out the door.