The feeling of blood running down my arms has become normal to me but there seems to be a bit more now, too much oh my god I cut too deep I'm going to die wait, isn't this what I wanted? I remember the first time I ever did it, I was hoping I'd cut too deep but that didn't happen because now I have 55 cuts on my arms. I looked down and saw a puddle of blood forming and I was starting to feel a bit dizzy. I started to think about Sammy and Josie and I thought I was losing my mind. Of course nobody had to be home today. I was slowly dying and I wasn't even trying to save myself. I started to think about 2 years ago when I was dating Steph I hadn't even started cutting yet or even thinking about it. As I searched through my drawer to find my suicide note I knew it was close to the end. I found it and lied it next to me then everything went black.
As I walked in to her room calling her name she wasn't answering as I made my way to her bathroom I saw blood and I knew what was coming I walked in and saw her lifeless body lying in the middle of floor and I started to cry my sister she did it gosh how could she do this to me? I saw her note and started to read it and I was bawling by now but for once she looked peaceful. I ran downstairs and told mom and dad and they ran to see it themselves. We sat in her room crying for hours. The next day I went to school and saw Sammy and Josie and told them before the school made the announcement we stood there and cried for awhile. I have classes with everyone she had a history with and sitting here makes me feel sick to my stomach I sat there waiting for them to make the announcement and it finally came on. "I'm sorry to everyone who knew Jessica's sister but she committed suicide and passed yesterday" I started to blink away the tears so no one would notice because they were all looking at me now. *A month later* all the people who bullied her or messed with her now self harm and are pill poppers. Of course they blame themselves because it is their faults 3 of them died a couple weeks ago and I do feel sorry for their families. Because no one deserves to die. Well that was my sister's story. Gone but never forgotten <3
~Food Princess
