Tell Me That You Love Me

Tell Me That You Love Me: Chapter 1

                                         (The picture at the side is of Mellody.)                                                                                                                            "Itsy bitsy spider climbed up the water spout. Down came the rain and wash-..."

I sang the nursery rhyme with my two year old brother, Jessie, his words barely audible.I was only eight then. My daddy picked me up before we could finish the song. He walked to a room with me in his hands. I was scared because my dad never took any interest in me. He dropped me on the bed, closed the door and locked it. My breath quickened and I was afraid. I never liked my father and he never liked me, plain and simple. So, why am I locked in a room with him. He walked towards me and pushed me, so I was laying on my back.

"Daddy?" I whispered.

"It's okay, Mello." I gagged in disgust as he used the name Jessie called me.

He hovered on top of me and unbuckled his belt. I rolled from under him and fell on the floor. I landed on my hands and knees, beginning to push my self up. My blonde hair fell over my eyes as I ran to the door

"Ahhhh!" I cried out, as I felt my hair being tugged from my head.

Tears stung my eyes as he threw me back on the bed. He unbuttoned my jeans and threw them on the floor.

"Daddy!" I shouted, the tears rolling down my face now.

He pulled off my underwear and I felt exposed. My screams filled the house, but no one came.

In the distance I could here Jessie,"Mello! Mello! Sissy!" His cries brung more tears to my eyes.

"I hate you!" I spat in my father's face.

He let out a low chuckle and I gasped as something entered me. I gripped on the sheets and a pain shot through my body. A couple of minutes later my dad got off of me. He buckled his pants and left.ni reached to the floor and grabbed my underwear. I put them on, pulling them over my aching legs. I crawled back on the bed and curled up into a ball. I gripped my stomach and screamed. I cried myself to sleep, after wrapping my arm around my baby brother, who I had felt climb into the bed with me.

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I came out of my day dream. The memory in my mind, so vivid. I found myself sitting in front of my bedroom window, staring out. I saw a boy, older than me. He looked back at me. Seeming as if to see through me. He smiled at me, but it hurt so much to flex the muscles in my mouth. I haven't smiled in such a long time. I just put my hand up and waved. But my hand slowly fell as I saw my older brother walk over to the boy and begin to talk. My hand balled up in a tight fist and I became stiff. I hate my older brother and my dad for all the pain and suffering they put me through and I hate my mom for not giving a shit. The only one I have is Jessie, I guess.

I slowly rise from my seat. I start to walk out of my room and stare at the floor. I'm at the top of the stairs when I look down at myself. I'm in an oversized hoodie and jean shorts. My fingertips barely hang from the end of the sleeve. My Bare feet slowly carry me down the stairs, and a pain keeps shooting up my legs. My older brother was just with me last night, I refused to cooperate, so he beat me. When I finally reached the bottom stairs I see Tyler and Cam sitting on the couch. I walk towards the couch and sit next to Tyler.

"Hi, Mello." He said to me.

"Hi, Ty." I mumbled to him.

I put my legs on the couch and pulled my knees into my chest, resting my head on my knees. I looked at Tyler as he stared at the t.v. I studied his face, so matured and... Cute. The way his jaw line curved. The way his eyes sparkled. The way his hair fell over his face. Tyler has never once been mean to me. He was always my friend. I wonder what Tyler would do if he knew? Knew about the beatings and sexual attacks. Would he no longer speak to Cam and try to protect me? Or would he join in on the 'Fun'? Tyler continued to stare at the t.v. and I continued to stare at him. I felt the urge to reach out and touch him. To stroke his hair and jump into his arms. But he would probably only push me away, like everyone did when I needed them most. When I yearned for their love, care, and affection. But maybe he wouldn't. I think back to the time when he comforted me, I was 10 and he was 12. I was crying over the only person I thought would always be there for me besides Jessie. It was best friend Julia. She abandoned me.

"She was my best friend! She promised no matter what she would always be there. But where is she now? She's hanging out with all of those other kids, laughing and talking about me." I cried to Tyler.

"Apparently she wasn't. She was just there. An obstacle to keep you from finding something better. But you know what? You have a new best friend. Me. And I promise I shall never abandon you." Tyler said to me.

I threw myself into his arms and hugged him.

Now we aren't as close. He's closer to Cam. Cam's voice snapped me back into reality.

"What are you staring at?!" He shouted.

I blushed as Tyler turned towards me and I realized I've been staring at him for the past ten minutes.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled and looked at the floor.

"It's cool." He said.

I looked at him and he smiled. Tyler got up and walked to the bathroom, leaving me with Cam.

"What?" I spat at him with venom in my voice.

"He will never want you." Cam said to me and returned each bit of hatred I sent at him. This made me mad.

"What make you think I will ever want him?" I question him jumping up from the couch. Cam stands up too.

"Oh, don't play dumb. I see the way you stare at him. The way you blush when he is near. I know you like him, maybe even love. But he will never love you back." Cam says.

A tear slides down my cheek but my face expression never changes. Cam walks upstairs to his room and shuts the door, leaving me there to cry alone. Tyler walks out of the bathroom and asks,

"Where did Cam go?"

But the only thing I can say is, "You promised you would always be my best friend."

I ran out the front door, Bare feet and all. He never even noticed the tears on my face. The only thing he noticed is that Cam was gone.