How do I explain to someone that I've been hiding myself from my parents for 5 years? How I really want to tell them but they are homophobic and I can't, because they will kick me out and hate me? (And I know this is true because of what happened with my sister) How I know what I want to do with my life, yet I can't talk it over with my parents because they don't know. Her mom knows, and I think she is okay with me, but if I tell them and get kicked out where am I going to go? Because I have a feeling that she won't really let me move in.
I want to be able to just go up to my parents and say to them, hey, I'm moving out and marrying the girl of my dreams once I graduate, I'm going to Iowa lakes community collage for the first two years and then I'll transfer to a 4 year collage. I'm going to major in criminal justice (or something of the sort that depends on the collage I go to) Im going to continue working my job, and work to make a living and make this relationship work. I love her and absolutely nothing is going to change that.
I'm happy with how I am, and I've accepted myself, why can't they?
Talking to people and letting them into my life. I have nothing against Jess, she is a good person. So please don't think that I am not wanting to talk to her because of who she is, it would be this way with anyone else as well.
In person I don't know what to say
Then of course since my parents are homophobic, I have to make the choice between my parents and the life I know now, or an unknown life I know nothing about, without my parents but is be able to accept myself publicly, and not have to hide anymore. Because hiding from yourself sucks 😕
Telling my parents she's is just my best friend sucks...
I understand where her mom comes from when she says she doesn't really understand because that's not how she was raised, but at least she is trying.
