Victuri

The Hospital

**In the hospital room with Victor**

I could only watch Victor. I didn't know what to say or do. I was an idiot, a jerk and an ass for kissing Yurio back. I wanted Victor to wake up and tell him that I was an idiot but i knew he'd never forgive me and I didn't blame him one bit. When I began to think of all the good times we had together they faded away. I wanted him to just hold me tight and never let go and then I would wear his jacket and it would feel comfortable and cozy, I would be able to smell his cologne and the thought of being near him gave me chills because dammit he made me feel safe and I was in love with HIM not Yurio. I was an idiot for kissing Yurio and now Victor is in hospital because of me. Oh god. I could feel the walls closing in on me, the butterflies became a zoo and the nervous shaking turned into anxious jolts running through my body. "No. N-not again." I bolted to the toilet in Victor's room and began to throw up violently. I hated myself. After I finished walked back to Victor's bedside and just cried and held his hand while the drip in his arm binded us closer. I couldn't even move, I just sat there and cried. I rubbed his hand with my thumb to show him that I was sorry. Whether he could feel it or not I didn't care. I decided that I needed to take my mind off everything so I let go and walked out of the hospital room. As I was walking around I felt the tears streaming down my face. I used my sleeve to wipe them away but then I began to cry more when I realised this was Yurio's jacket. I huffed loudly and pulled it over my head and threw it into my hands with anger and guilt pulling it down. I kept walking until I saw a dead end and turned around. A quick walk at least stopped me from crying. As I curiously peeked my head around the corner I saw someone in a hospital gown grabbing onto the drip. It was Victor.

{Yes sorry for the short chapter but I've just been crying for over eight hours so I'm not in the mood to write. I promise to put alot of effort into the next chapter and I'm linking it to the latest episode where SPOILER!!!! 

WATCH EPISODE 10 IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY THIS IS A REALLY BIG SPOILER!!

They go on vacation together and the 'engagement' happens so I know how I'll link this chapter to that episode and still use the feedback people gave me. About the crying, I'm fine I don't want to talk about I'm just graduating and I'm gonna miss alot of people so I'm a bit sad but yA GIRL IS ALL G OKAY??!??}