The Sucide Girl And Jungkook

What Is This?!

I woke up to ringing in my ears and my head throbbing. The bed was lower on the right side of me and that's when I turned over to see Jungkook hanging off the side with his hands covering his face.

"Jung-Jungkook." I choked out and you can only hear muffling sounds coming from him. He most be crying. I reached over and poked his back. "Jungkook."

"Amber!" He says turning around fast and gave me a fast hug.

I stared at something in his left hand. It was my notebook! 

"What's that?" I asked hoping he didn't go through it or see my name on the inside.

"Don't play me stupid." He says growling and raised the notebook up. "This is yours."

"I never seen that in my life." I say and he gives out a harsh laugh.

"Your name is in the inside." He says and I hold my hand out expecting him to put the notebook in my hand, but he doesn't. "What is it!?"

"I don't know." I say quietly and he leans closer to me.

"What is it?!" He says and he looked dead serious. "Is this many ways how to kill yourself...like... your... never mind."

I stare down at my red hands which are still cold from last night. My face felt like it was on fire and it felt like I was bald.

"My parents. Yes, you made fun of me for that and gave me money when I only asked for was respect. You never understood me." I say turning away and he grabbed underneath my chin and pulled me close to him. I could smell his peppermint breath. Our lips were only inches apart. He slowly stroked my cheek.

"I was a big ass hole back then, but I changed. I promise." He says and I felt a tear role down my cheek and he whipped it away.

"People never change." I whisper only to feel his lips coming closer to mine. "Don't make a promise you can't keep."

With that being said I pulled away before our lips can touch.

"Amber..." He whines and throws his hands to his face hiding his shame.

"Turn off the light when you walk out and close the door." I say turning my back towards him.