(Ivan’s POV)
After I saw her this morning..my heart went wild again..yes I am indeed a jerk..for hurting my
besftriend and the only woman I ever love..I have been inlove with her since high school..Itried to
suppress my feelings and waited for a sign that she too feels the same way..I shoo every suitors
she had/have, tear every love letter she had/ have for I want her to be mine alone..but as years
passes by and she became an actress my chances become too small..I felt that to her I’m just her
dear bestfriend that we can never be more than what I love us to be..she’s the heiress ,the young
superstar in our generation,the most indemand and sought after leading lady that every derictor
and actors would want to work with..me..I have my own name and title but compared to her I am
nothing..I even thought that I became famous because of my family’s name and her being my
bestfriend..but she told me I have my own star and never get insecure because I am her star..it
gives me hope a bit...but still there’s no sign..so I tried hard to forget my feelings for her and try to
move on..then one night I found out that Kazel have feelings for me when I accidentally heard her
talking to herself...yes I took advantage to it..I secretly courted her..she wasn’t an easy to cooed
with..even if she’s inlove with me it took me five months to make her say yes..I still love my
bestfriend but little by little I’m beginning to like kazel..not yet love but I’m holding into it..she’s a nice
lady..came from a good family too..and one of our bestfriend..we took our relationship secretly..until
one dinner that our family called us up..they told us that we are going to engage for an arrange
marriage..its as if someone push the button of my life time bomb when I heard it..why now?why
now when I already have Kazel..I get my self angry for my bestfriend for her to hate me..I don’t want
my life to be inline with complication..not now when I’m starting to move on..so I did everything that
will make her despise me..until one revealation came..yes that was when our group found us
making out in our hangout place..I almost killed my self when I heard from her that she loves me...it
brokes me apart when I looked at the pain in her eyes..I know my bestfriend so much ..yes she was
calmed and controlled that day but her eyes where shouting from pain,betrayal..and I almost killed
my self that very moment..but I can do nothing but continually play my jerk act..yes I verbally hurt her
that caused my friend to hit me...that was painful but it was nothing compared the pain I’ve caused
not only to her but the rest of the group yes including Kazel ..didn’t they know that I was crying inside
too..maybe more pain than what they feel..because she is my bestfriend and I’m the reason why
she is in pain and why she is running away..and I love her not just her bestfriend..I am indeed
inlove with my bestfriend
All those days that she wasn’t around ..no one knows but I looked for her..I go every possible
