Life's direction

Johanna

       December 9 the worst day so far in this fandom. We found out Louis' mum, Johanna died on Wednesday the 7 from an aggressive form of Leukaemia at the young age of 42. She would have been 43 next week. She was such a big part of Louis' life and our lives. Nobody saw it coming. The fandom had no idea, we didn't even get to say goodbye.

    I was having a normal amazing friday since we didn't have school, and i was out with my aunt. I came home and opened instagram. All the fan accounts said "R.I.P Johanna", and I was like 'no, it's not real. It's a joke' then I went on twitter. Phoebe, Daisy, Fizzy and Lottie all tweeted about it. Now I was freaking out. No, can't be I kept telling myself. Niall, Zayn and Liam tweeted to. It just wouldn't sink in. It can't be true, she was okay looking a couple of months ago at a charity event. But I remembered that leukaemia doesn't really effect appearance unless it's the type of treatment you're using. If I could, I would bring Johanna back. But I can't.

   Directionators kept saying "I'm in tears, I still can't believe it". That made me mad. They don't get how amazing and influential she was. They just want to seem like everyone else. They don't really care. My friends are always like "oh are you okay? Do you need a hug", this also annoys me. They don't mean anything bad, i just hate people showing me pity. Let me mourn in peace. I feel weak or embarrassed when people do that to me. All they have to say is "i'm sorry", that's all.

  I'm sorry for turning this into something about myself. It's supposed to be about Johanna and The tommo/deakin family. But I just thought i should share what people have done to me about this tragic event. Comment if that's happened to you or comment how u feel. I'm here. Above there's a video of Louis and Steve aoki performing their new song about Johanna, i think, on the x factor on December 10. The boys were all there to support him. I love you fam!❤️

Love
-Alex