(REVISED)Conflicted Love (Tokyo Ghoul fanfic) (CONTINUE and EDITED STORYLINE)

Chapter 3- A Brother's and Sister's Blame

Kaneki's POV
'Where am I..... I see darkness surrounding me.... Where is Yuki?!..... I saw her... She's not dead right?....'

Flashback
"KEN-NII!" I hear Yuki...? What is she doing here! I was then slammed across the construction site to a wall of sturdy concrete... My body was numb as I could barely keep my eyes open... I desperately wanted to yell at Yuki to tell her to run or to try to save her....but I'm weak... Yuki is going to die because of me....

"Oh~ who's this? Aren't you this boy's sister I saw in Anteiku?" If only I haven't fallen head over heels for Rize-san... Y-Yuki could of avoided getting hurt...

"You'll pay for this you bitch!" I barely saw Yuki grab a metal pole besides her and run towards Rize-san. I so desperately wanted to stop her form hurting herself...  She dodged three of the glowing spikes from the tentacles in a flash...but...the most horrifying thing has ever happened... Rize-san stabbed Yuki with the other one tentacle... I wanted to scream and shout, but no words came out as I was paralyzed.... I was like a lifeless human body without a soul.... Rize-san raised her up higher and Yuki was still holding onto the metal pole... She threw the pole with force into Rize-san's left shoulder as she let out a holler of agony.... Yuki was slammed into the concrete wall and blood poured out from her form as she coughed out a pool of blood. She was covered in blood everywhere.... It was horrifying....she's hurt... She might die... She's suffering... All because of me...

"Ehh~... Are you really gonna die? You taste just as delicious as your brother! Maybe even better than his blood! Your flesh is really soft and delicate! I'll make a slop out of you since you injure me quite dearly... That hurt...."

"Y-you d-amn bitch! DIE IN HELL!"

"I was just having fun! I'll pay back the favor! Plus you are different... You're stronger than an average human...." What does Rize-San mean...what is she saying...sure Yuki's strong...but what is she saying....

She smiled wickedly while the four red tentacles only just grew in size as it glowed as if it was gaining more power to strike us dead. Yuki struggled to crawl closer to my paralyzed body and wrapped herself around me protectively but at the same time a loud snap came from above. These huge metal structure poles that weighed thousands of tons fell on top of Rize and was crushed under hundreds of them. At this same moment I blacked out with Yuki still clinging onto me... What a useless older brother I am.... I can't even protect my little sister from getting severely injured... She has to protect me... She's probably dead... If only I hadn't brought her into this mess... All of this happened because of me.

Flashback Ended

My eyes flashed open as I had an oxygen mask on my face. My eyes felt heavy, my limbs felt sore, my body feels stiff, I have mixed emotions... And I'm not sure if Yuki's alive.....

A nurse came in and placed a serving of food for me like fish, soup, and such, but when I took a small bite... It tasted awful... The fish tasted like burnt rubber with slime.... I pulled over the covers of the bed to hid my face as I silently cried to myself. Soon, the doctor entered just now to check up on me.

"How are you feeling? I see you haven't eaten much." I shook my head and stared at my covered lap of the sheets.

"It tastes weird... I don't think my taste buds are functioning correctly..."

"Well it's normal for that to happen. You are just recovering from a serious incident getting your organs transported. Luckily you and that other girl could of have spilt organs from that woman who had passed away." My eyes shot up to face him as I tightly clutched the sheets of the bed... Yuki... My little sister might still be alive!

"T-the girl that you mention! She has black hair and silver eyes! She sorta looks like me! She's my younger twin sister! Is she alive?!" I was shaking... I didn't want to lose Yuki... She was all that I have left... The only blood related family that I have left ever since mom died... She and Hide both are precious to me...

"Yes, she's still alive..." I gasped in relief but was cut off. "Although she survived... She is suffering the same problems like you but worse." My expression dropped and I couldn't stop shaking in fear. 'What does he mean worse?.... Yuki!...no...'

"What do you mean w-worse....?" He sighed and stared straight into my eyes.

"She's in a coma right now." My eyes widened in shock...hurt...depression...and in regrets.... I started tearing up as I shielded my face with my hands. I muffled out cracked notes of agony as he continued. "We studied her state and it seems like she's lucky enough to have a short time of amount of being in a coma and would be able to keep her memories." I hesitantly lifted my shaking head and felt so ever slightly relieved that she would be able to remember me when I awake...but at the same time...she'll remember how much of a terrible older brother I was to fail to protect her.... She's in a coma because of me... She's injured because of me...

"W-when I'm d-discharged... C-could I see her...." He nodded his head.

"Yes, of course. When you are discharged you may see her." He stood up and bowed before he left me to cry alone silently.

'Yuki... I'm sorry... All of this happened because of me... I'm so useless....'

Yuki's POV
It's dark.... I'm scared... Where's Ken-nii... What happened to me.... I feel like my head is throbbing as if I've been killed or mentally going insane.... Ken-nii....

I can't see any light... I can't see anything...yet..why do I feel like I see something that seems... inhuman...Something's lurking around the corner of my vision... Everytime I turn, it seems to disappear as if it's playing hide and seek with me...like I'm a prey...like it wants to consume me into somthing new..... I feel like I'm choking on air... I feel like I have been revived from the dead...but in a deadly way....

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Wait... I remember what happened! Rize! She attacked Ken and I tried saving him...but I failed to save him.... Rize's dead...but is Ken-nii still alive breathing?... It's my fault! I encouraged him into bringing up his confidence to ask Rize out! I'm such a terrible sister! If I didn't lose track of where they went on their date! If only I could of stopped Rize from straggling Ken!... NO!...If only I could of been a bit more selfish about Ken having a crush with someone he doesn't know.... If only I didn't encourage him.... I'm the worst... It's my fault!...my fault.....

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..... My fault.... Ken...nii.... I did this to him.....