I always get that strange feeling that i am alone even when i am with my friends i feel like nobody is there ... i just feel like crying and not talking to anyone , whenever someone asks me whats wrong with me i just laugh and say nothing but inside i am burning inside i am dying inside i am crying ... sometimes in the middle of a normal day i feel so depressed without a reason i just lock my self in my room and cry hard but the time i walk out of the door it looks like i am very well and happy i never show my friends how i really feel about everything and about myself because i am afraid that they'll understand it in a wrong way ... i have a very different prospective of things than my friends and family I feel like i am strange i feel like whatever i say people think it's dumb ... i really started not to care about anyone like I literally care about NOBODY because at some point each person i used to care for betrayed me or did a bad thing to me ... I focus on everything thing every little small detail i know it and I remember everything i never forget ... lately I started to act like a very dumb person just to avoid things from people i just sit alone listen to music all day I started not talking to anyone even the close ones ... even my music taste is kinda weird for a girl as they say but i love my music i love my self i love my personality it simply represents me ... and i am happy with who i am even though nobody else is happy with it but I couldn't care less
