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two | couples & the jealousy

two | couples & the jealousy.

It's been like two days ago since that happened, and I swear that it's the worst new year of my life that I just want to crawl in my bed.

I glance a look at Colson when he suddenly speak out of nowhere.
"So. mom, dad, and of course Cam, I have something to tell you," my parents looked each other confused and dropped their spoon and fork except for me.

Is he going to tell that he's pregnant? He got someone pregnant? Or what?

"Ashley and I are finally couples," I almost choked when he said the word 'couple'. I cough twice and I didn't mind that I caught their attention.

"Honey, are you okay?" mom asked as she rubbed my back and I quickly nodded.

"Well, That's good, Colson. But don't make anything worst, okay?" we know what mom was trying to say so he nodded. I can sense that he is staring at me so I smiled at him sincerely.

"Congrats!" without a choice, i smiled and he smiled back and everything went smooth.

"I know," he proudly uttered, but I can't believe that this is happening. I mean, I can't forget how he told me about being disgusted seeing couples making out or holding their hands. It's just that I'm not used to see him with my bestfriend.

"Colson, try reading this novel. It's about the two person and the man has to use quadriplegic in order to make him go wherever he wants to, but of course he found a girl who will take care of her and suddenly they fell in love with each other, but! The guy did die in the ending. Tragic love, right?" I said yelling at his face while wiping my tears as I could see the mascara's running through my cheeks.

"Can you shut your mouth? How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not going to read that book! Or any of that crazy love stories you read! I. Don't. Like. Love. Okay?," I can see that he was annoyed saying those words.

"You should-"

"Camila," he seriously said looking straight at me without blinking. I could feel tense- just me feeling the tense between us.

"Okay. Okay, I was just trying to recommend you a book, geez!" I sigh and put back the book to its shelf.

I was about to close my eyes when I remembered he is still in my room. I really don't know what exactly he wants.

"Why are you still here? You're supposed to be in your room," I said without showing emotions.

He answered too slow and that I couldn't barely hear him, so I decided to stood and sat with him where he's sitting in my little sofa while facing at me, and that's why I couldn't sleep.

"You look stressed out," I added. He was serious too. This seem to be important. He was holding a book, not a novel book or any fiction book. I could see random stuff in it.

Without permission, I quickly grabbed the book he was holding before he could get it. I was shocked because it is full of angles, numbers, degree, and other math stuff.

"Are you studying?" I suddenly asked.

"I don't study, okay? It's my shitty homework," he said, strongly. I rolled my eyes of what he said.

"So do you want some help?"

"Yeah," he bordely said.

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For once, I was the first one to come at school, and then Colson came like five minutes after me.

I saw Ashley with nobody and I automatically smiled and waved my hands so that she could see me, but I can see she's looking at someone with her unusual huge smile.

I read her lips saying a name 'Colson' and then I saw him running for Ashley, and the next thing I know- they kissed.

Yup! They kissed, for the first time of my life I saw a girl that Colson kissed, and yes, she's the first one. And she's my bestfriend, and I am happy for that.

But I didn't understand my heart and my brain, it's like they are fighting: my brain agrees with them, but my heart says no and I don't know what to follow any more so I smiled at them bitterly, again.

"Cam!" I immediately stared at the floor when I heard Shawn's voice coming to me.

"Were you creeping with them?" I shook my head trying to escape the question.

"Or... you're just jealous?" when he mentioned the word 'jealous', I quickly glance a look again at them and I see, Colson holding Ashley's shoulder while she's like hugging a taller tree.

"Were you?" he asked again shockingly and he gasped. How can I say this? it's both, I'm creeping around and also jealous.

I lied. "Hah! of course not, I'm not lesbian, okay? Let's just go before our classes start," I changed the topic and walked first but he followed next to me and I heard him sigh. a deep sigh. like there's something with his sigh.