It's alright| girl X girl

Alone

(A/N: WARNING mentions of self harm and depression. but not a lot tho)

Roman's P.O.V

It was a normal saturday. I sat in my room listening to Panic! At The Disco when I looked out my window to see car pull up at the house that once was the home to my best friend. I couldn't really see much detail so I decided I would meet my new neighbors. this was unusual for me. but Panic! gives me confidence so I, figured why not? To no surprise my mom had already left the house, probably to meet the neighbors. I walk over to them and see a woman holding a toddler, she seems tired and her aura is hard to read. then I see a man that seems a bit too happy, i don't know his aura is weird and secretive. Then there is a guy? He is interesting. The his body is one of a males but he seems, i don't know, his spirit has both traits. i don't see that very often. the closer i get the more i see in him. He isn't happy, he is missing something and i can't tell what it is. He has lost a lot though. i look back at what i assume to be her mother and i can tell she lost something as well. but it isn't as big of a deal than it is for the boy. I stand next to my mother and notice the boys appearance. He has on an All Time Low shirt, skinny jeans, and beat up black converse. He actually was kinda attractive. "Hey, i'm Roman" i say to him and hold out my hand. "H-hi i'm V-Verge " i look at his arm as she shakes my hand. there are scars, and they are semi new. I pretend that i didn't see that and offer to help her with her stuff.

we talked for a while about what fandoms we are in. He has a great sense of humor. a few hours later we all eat and i meet the rest of her family. He looks a lot like her mother but nothing like what i assume to be his father. but his sister looks like the dad and his older brother looks nothing like either of them. we all had a casual conversation. Their beds and stuff don't come till tomorrow so i asked if Verge can stay over. not for any reason, i just feel bad that he needs to sleep on the floor.

we start walking to my house with my mom close behind us.  "so what is school like" Verge asks. "like any other school, you have the jocks, nerds,geeks, emos, cheerleaders, ect." i reply. "i've never been to a big school before, my elementary school was Kindergarten-8th grade and only had 300 kids, my high school was a small academy for law that had 200 kids." He explains. I look at him in shock. 200-300 kids? He is going to have a hard time at my the new school.

Verge's P.O.V

we walk in their house. everything is clean and put together. it has a similar layout as my house. "well boys i am going to bed, don't stay up to late, okay?" i cringe when she says 'boys' but  oh well. "okay mom" Roman responds. we go up to his room and sit on the bed. "so tell me more about yourself,  like you pronouns and sexuality- If you are okay with telling me" Roman says. I tell him. " uhm, my name is Verge , i'm genderfluid, my pronouns are They/them" I don't want to tell him I'm gay, I don't know how he would feel.i say quickly. Roman smiles and replies "well, im Roman, pronouns are he/him"a wave of relief came over me as well as excitement. He's ok with me!

"So what group are you in, like at school?"I ask him. "Erm, I kinda just hang around everyone" he continues to explain the school and the schedule but I start to zone out when it all hits me.

my dad and his husband are dead, my best friend is unstable and alone on the other fucking side of the world, everything i've ever known is gone. i am in a new place, alone. ...DARKNESS...

i wake up laying in an unfamiliar bed at an unfamiliar room. I almost have a panic attack when I realize I'm in Romans room, I take a good look at it for the first time, there are Disney and broadway stuff all over the place, the walls are painted red.I sit up. "good you're awake" he says. "what happened?" i ask him. my head hurts so much. "you started randomly crying and told me everything..." i started to panic (a/n but not at the disco! haha...ha.... i'll go).  i've ruined everything. He knows how broken i am. it's all over. i wanted to run but i was frozen still. i couldn't move and i started crying. no not again WHAT ARE YOU DOING!! STOP!  "Hey, hey i'm sorry-" he attempted to calm me down. "EVERYONE IS FUCKING SORRY" i yelled. why am i like this? why do i do this to other people. "i'm a terrible person, Roman, i'm- i didn't mean to yell." Then he hugged me. it was probably the best hug i've ever had. "hey, your not a terrible person, you need to stop putting yourself down. what Zach did wa- he's a terrible person, not you. it's alright"

we sat there for what seemed like a few minutes but was really an hour. "if you want to you can go back to your house" he said trying to make me feel better "no... no i feel safer here... if that's okay?" i said. i started getting anxiety again. "no, ya i want you to stay" even though i've only known her for a few hours, i trust him a lot. which is unusual for me, and i know this might end horribly but i don't really have anything to lose at this point.

A/N: i know this isn't a good chapter but oh well... i hope you liked it anyway.)