Victuri! Blinded by love: COMPLETED

Its a cruel world afterall

YUURI POV

Victor is saying something to me but i can't make it out. I can hear whispers, it's probably shock i suppose. Knowing that my eyes were definitely opened comfirmed it all. I was blind. I guess i hadn't accepted it yet, i'd be crying and probably screaming or clinging to Victor if i had. I wonder how long it will take for it to sink in, that i couldn't see i mean.

Victor shook me and suddenly it was extremely loud, too loud. "Victor, get me out of here" i whispered. He grabbed my hand and when i was stumbling he just picked me up bridal style (sorry over used trope i get it i get it)

We were outside and Victor placed me in what i assumed was the passenger seat of his car. I laughed
"Why are you laughing Yuuri?" Victor asked, shocked.
"I guess i'll never be driving again" i said, when it finally sunk in. I started to shake, i leant forward so my head was between my knees and put my hands over my eyes, maybe if it felt like i shouldn't be able to see it would go away when i took my hands off. I couldn't help but be hopeful.

I warily leant up, and reluctantly took my hands away from eyes. It was still pitch black. I felt the tears run down my cheeks, i didn't even try to wipe them. Victor placed his hand on mine and the engine started. I had a feeling we were going very fast,
"Vic-Victor, s-slow down" i said quietly.

"Sorry Yuuri" he said as he slowed down. I was still crying. The car stopped and i tried to find the door handle. I couldn't even open a bloody door. I bit down on my lip to stop myself from crying, but i only succeeded in making my lip bleed. Victor ran me into the hospital. I heard light footsteps in our direction. "What's wrong?" A lady, who i assumed was a nurse, asked.
"He can't see" Victor said.

I was shaking so violently the Doctor, who i couldn't see, seemed to be having trouble checking my eyes.
"Could you hold him still?" The Doctor asked, suddenly i felt to arms on me, i flinched and started crying again. I didn't even know who touched me. "It's okay Yuuri, its only me, Victor" Victor said, i calmed down enough for the Doctor to properly check my eyes.

"Well, his eyes are actually reacting to the light quiet well." The doctor said as if i wasn't there. I didn't even know that he was shining light in my eyes.
"It seems that the connection between his eyes and his brain have been interrupted. But i'm afraid we can't repair that kind of nerve damage." The doctor continued to talk but i zoned out. There was no way i could compete now. Maybe even ever.

It seemed the Doctor had dismissed us, told us to go home and let me rest until i had finally accepted it. He gad said something about shock and trauma. I guess that he was talking about me. Victor held my hand as we drove. He walked me up a pathway and through a door, it smelt like my house.
"Are we at my house Victor?" I asked.
"Oh! Sorry! Yes, we are" he said, seemingly thinking.

That night, while i tried to sleep, i lay there and thought. Now that i can't skate, Victor, Victor will leave me. I have no use to him, i don't matter. I don't really want him to stay out if guilt but i really like Victor. I want him to help through this, but that's selfish. I can't expect him to do that. I had insisted on sleeping by myself that night, knowing that I was going to cry, and i did. I would never skate again.

After i had evened out my breathing from my ugly sobbing i went to the bathroom. I stumbled along the hallways, ashamed i had not remembered my own house better. I reached the toilet and did my business, sitting down of course.

I walked out and washed my hands. I tried to see, i felt the tears continuously running down my cheeks. I touched the mirror as if it would hold some answer. I fumbled and cried and had to resist the urge to smash the mirror.

I was about to punch it when someone walked in.
"W-Whose there?!" I demanded with a shaky voice.
"I-It's just me Yuuri." Victor stuttered.
I gave in, i sunk down on the floor and buried my face in my hands in a desperate attempt to hide myself.
"Yuuri? What are doing? Come on, you need your sleep." Victor said tiredly. Suddenly he heard my sobs, he rushed over "Yuuri, its okay" he soothed as he hugged me, i was still crying.

I pushed him away, i tried so hard, so hard to see anything. But i couldn't. I didn't let Victor near me as i tried to stumble away. "Yuuri? Yuuri whats gotten into you?" He asked, slightly annoying but more worried.
"N-Nothing!" I shouted, falling over. I didn't find the motivation to get up, i just laid there crying like a baby.

"Yuuri, Yuuri?" Victor walked over and  cradled me in his arms ("we had a bonding moment!"). "Yuuri, why did you push me away?" He asked, hurt. I sat up and took a deep breath. "Victor- you, you don't have to stay and help me. If you stay out of guilt i'll feel worse. You have your own life, don't worry about me." I said, wiping my eyes in a hopeless attempt to stop the endless flow or tears i seemed to have.

"Yuuri, how could you say that? I have my own selfish reasons for staying with you. I love you Yuuri, no matter what." He said as he grabbed my hand gently. I was on the verge of breaking down again, i finally had someone to love, after all these years. And i couldn't see his face, how cruel.