His Self-Proclaimed Girlfriend

PROLOGUE

They say love comes when you least expect it, I say love comes because I'm expecting it to come. I love him so much but he never said that he loves me too. I've been yearning for him to say that words but I know 'I love you' is not even a question to begin with.

They say people who love more are the people who can be hurt badly in the end, I say I don't care for no matter how much I avoid it, my love for him comes back again and again even though it hurts, it'll come back.

They say never expect anything unless directly stated, I say I expect too much from him, call me presumptuous but here am I.  When it comes to him moving on is never an option. I chose to love him therefore I chose to be hurt by him ganun naman talaga pag mahal mo ang isang tao asahan mo na masasaktan ka. What is love without little pain?  Because once they made their mark on your life, they will be permanently etched. Magkasakitan man, may magawa man na masama, still, kapag bumalik sila, tatanggapin mo pa rin. 

Will you keep loving someone who will never be yours? Yes and then later on not anymore.  I can't control my feelings but eventually I will get tired cause it's way too hurtful especially when you yearn too much to be adored and loved back as well but the real question is can I? Shit gets old. You get tired of trying to work things out. You get tired of giving chances. Sometimes you just have to let people go and then here comes the same question again and again can I? Can I let him go? Can I withstand the pain and agony?

Of course, not. 

Ano bang magagawa ko eh ako ang patay na patay? Kailangan ako ang tumodo effort. Give and take ang love pero sa aming dalawa puro give lang. Ako palagi ang nagbibigay kahit alam kong sobra-sobra na. Btw, I'm Macy Co. Once upon a time, he had me under a spell. A spell that made me love him. But he was never the wizard that swept me off my feet and swooned me to love, as I have imagined him to be instead he was the complete opposite. 

From the very start, he was the kind of witch that carried me by the end of his broom. A last-second offer for a ride. An option. Someone who can drop from thousands of feet above and never catch. He was a witch that dropped people, and he let them fall without even giving a cushion to land on. He had me hitting the ground at 100 kilometers per second. Simultaneously. All at the same time. And I can’t take anymore of that. In fact, I can’t take anymore of anything and yet I still love him. How ironic right? I'll do whatever it takes just to have him. Hindi ako makakapayag na may dadating nalang at aagawin ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko. Sisiguraduhin ko na sa huli sa akin pa din siya babagsak. 

They say, loving is not owning don't be selfish. I say, loving is owning because when it comes to him, I'm just a selfish and egotistical girl. So ladies and gentlemen, I'm Lucas Echizen's self-proclaimed girlfriend and don't you dare come into him because he's mine and only mine. Got that?

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