Still (A Louis Tomlinson Fanfic)

Whats going on....

Whats happening to me..... I cant stop thinking about... Louis. It was generous thing to do but I think he should just stay away from me and my messed up miserable life. Everyone dies eventually but my time would come sooner than expected. Every day the palatalization takes over me... the disease gets bigger and worse... overpowering my body. Leaving me helpless a worthless waste of space in this world. Next thing i knew there he was again. With a huge smile on his face. How could someone be so happy in their life.. there had to be something behind that smile. Nothing can be perfect. He sat there it was silent. But it felt like nothing should be said. He then later broke the silence by handing me a white and red rose bouquet. I have to admit it was gorgeous. But i didn't want to get feelings for someone who doesn't feel for me. I went to touch the delicate pedals of the roses.... but with my effects of this disease i struggled to move. Louis saw how my body was shaking and the amount of effort was to much. I gave up like how i wanted to give up on life. He just looked concerned. That smile was finally gone. I took a deep breath hoping it would be my last. But he soon jumped up and went to the sink. He filled a jar up with water and unwrapped the flowers. He went to go place the flowers in the jar but knocked over the jar of water and it completely drenched me. Louis was mumbling on about how sorry he was but at that moment i just snapped.... I think you should leave.... he tried to fight back but that just made it worse. I told you to leave now! I yelled. He gasped but obeyed my rule. He apologized one more time before exiting the room. I sat there feeling guilty... i was to harsh. I looked over at the dripping water slowly falling off the desk. The water drops falling like i wanted to let my emotions out.... but I'm sure no one would understand... they never have...