His Toy

Again

Elsa Pov.

I blinked from the tears. I held my pillow tightly. I cried even more. A light knock hit the door.

Anna go away I screamed

The door opened and Hiccup poked his head in. One step in he quickly came to my side. He pulled me into his arms. His hand on my back rubbing circles. More tears ran down my cheeks and my heart was breaking even more. 

I lost it again..I lost it again I sobbed

He looked at me and tears streamed down his cheek. He closed me in his arms.

Hiccup I want more children..I want more..I sobbed even more

I pulled away and he wiped the tears from my eyes. He kissed my cheek. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He pulled me deeper in his arms.

I sobbed even more. I felt sick to my stomach.

This was the fifth miscarriage Hiccup and I have had and I really want another baby.

I just want one more baby Hiccup I want a baby girl I cried

A knock hit the door. We looked at the door. The door opened to Maxon and Channing.

Maxon is 8 and Channing is 6. Maxon has light brown hair and blue eyes with pale skin. Channing has platinum blonde hair and green silver eyes with pale skin

They came in and jumped on the bed and hugged me.

Mommy you okay asked Channing

I smiled and nodded.

Yes baby I'm okay I smiled softly

Hiccup hugged me tighter.

Boys it's best if you give mommy and I time to talk okay said Hiccup

They smiled and smirked then winked at Hiccup and rushed off. They shut the door softly and rushed down the hallway.

Elsa we have two beautiful boys..and you want another one he asked

I looked at him.

Hiccup you don't understand..I want a big family..we tried for a baby for 2 years. I want them close in age to be together I want babies Hiccup I begged

He looked at me. I know you want babies Elsa...believe me wanting a big family would be great but.. said Hiccup

There's no but Hiccup...I'm almost 30..I want to make children..Hiccup I want babies I want girls and boys with different personalities I want children Hiccup I said

I crawled into his arms. He wrapped his arms around my body. I sighed

I want babies...I don't want more miscarriages I want babies I sobbed

Hiccup inhaled sharply. He pressed a kiss on my head and held me tighter.
It's been two years. Two years of trying to have a baby but each time we go to the doctor they keep telling us we lost him or her again.

Not even 6 months ago we were so close but we lost the baby during the ultrasound.

The doctor told us yesterday that we might not be able to have another baby ever again. This broke my heart because I want a big family like Anna and I didn't have.

I guess that won't happen I mumbled